My poor baby....

OK y'all, it's once again my turn to ask for lots of prayers and good thoughts... but this time for my little one... well, and at this point, I guess me too.... Some of you already know that my 8 yr old has ADHD, Bi-Polar Disorder, and Intermittant Rage Outburst disorder. We have been having a really rough time for the last few months, and his behavior has been on a downward spiral. We have been working diligently on trying to adjust medications to get him where he could function ok in the real world, but with no sucess. He has been suspended from school 4 times in the last 5 weeks for having these 'fits of rage' and while in his fits, he loses all control, and has ended up hurting people. Wednesdays suspension was the final straw when he threw a chair at his pregnant teacher. I just got home from Atlanta from having him inpatient admitted to an acute care psych unit to attempt to get him on a medication regimen that will allow him to deal with the real world. It absolutely breaks my heart that I had to leave him so far away from me and home, but I also know I can't let him continue the way he was. I would never forgive myself if he hurt someone so severely, or even worse. So now I am sitting here in this quiet house, all alone, and feeling sorry for myself. Just think of me and my little one, and say a prayer that we both will make it thru this extra rough time... Not sure now if I will be able to make it to Joe's Crab Shack on Saturday, as visiting hours on Saturday are from 1-2pm, and I don't get to see him everyday.... Thanks everybody.... Susan

Susan, you are certainly in my prayers! I hope God gives you strength and courage to make the tough decisions that life is throwing your way right now. Hang in there... Michelle

Awww Susan, I am so sorry to hear of this. Please know that your son and you are in my prayers tonight. If there is anything you need please let me know. I know it doesn't make you feel any better but he's exactly where he needs to be tonight honey. He deserves the best care you can get him and in the long run this will surely pay off. You are a wonderful mother Susan. I pray you may find peace within yourself and are able to get some rest tonight. God's Blessings will surround you. Love, Barb

Susan, As a mother myself, my heart just aches for you that you have to be seperated from your son. And as the Aunt of someone who has dealt with the same diagnosis for years now, I can understand your pain and fears. You will be in my prayers, and your son will be in my prayers, I hope that he can get the help that he needs... Cathy

SUSAN DEFINTLY YOU AND YOUR SON ARE IN MY PRAYERS. AS I KNOW ALL ABOUT THIS RAGE MY BEST FRIENDS HAS THIS AND TO WATCH WHAT SHE AND HER FAMILY HAVE GONE THROUGHT IT JUST ACHES MY HEART. GETTING YOUR SON THIS HELP IS THE BEST THING YOU COULD HAVE DONE AS FOR SOME PEOPLE DONT EVEN TRY TO HELP THERE CHILDREN MY FRIENDS SON HAS GONE THROUGHT TREATMENTS AND TODAY DOING REALLY WELL AND HAS THE RIGHT MEDICATIONS AND IS BACK IN SCHOOL AND DOING REALLY WELL. THERE ARE SOME DAYS. BUT THEY SAID THEY WOULD RATHER HAVE SOME DAYS THEM EVERYDAY. SO KEEP YOUR CHIN UP AND HOLD IT HIGH BECAUSE YOUR SON NEEDS YOU MORE THAN EVERY.

Susan, I am so sorry you are going through this.... I went through some of this with my youngest (now 21) for different reasons and I understand it is hard on you.... It is hard on him too but my heart hurts for his mother because I have been there...... I will be praying for you both.. Let me know if you need to talk ok? Kiwani

Susan, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I have an inkling of how it is. I don't have any children, but I do have a roommate that I love very much and have been friends with for about 13 years who has a lot of issues. He is bi-polar also, manic depressive, has panick attacks, post traumatic stress disorder, etx. Since we've been living together (it will be two years in October) he has been hospitalized 3 times I believe, always at Ridgeview. He has been suicidal in the past and each time he's gone to Ridgeview it has been in the "C" lodge for people who have to be watched. You have to sign in, wait for them to unlock the doors to let you in, etx. It's very disconcerting. Not to mention our (mine and our other roommate's) fear that he will loose his job, how will we pay the bills, the tense and strange environment it creates in the house, etx. I've never had to deal with this sort of stuff before and I've been at a loss at times. They finally found the right medication balance for him and he's been doing so much better. They put him on lithium, and for him it's been the magic bullet. I will say a prayer for you and your son. I know admitting him is probably the hardest thing you've ever had to do, but it's for his own good. He will thank you in the long run. Kelle

Dear Susan, My heart hurts for you right now. As a momma, I know that there is no pain greater than when your child is in trouble. You want sooooo much to fix it. "They were at their wits' end. Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble, and He brought them out of their distress." Ps. 107:27,28 I am trusting the LORD with you right now that this trial will lead to relief and healing for your sweet boy and for you. When you walk(run, fall) through this struggle, please know that you are not alone. We are here for you, and more importantly, our GOD of all creation is walking with you. I am praying the prayer of Jabez for your boy. "Lord, bless Susan's son indeed, and enlarge his territory. May Your hand be with him, and please keep him from evil that he will do (or come to) no harm." God's hand is on your son, Susan! Rest in that tonight! I love you! Becky Becky

Susan, I'm sending up the guardian angels and lighting candles for you and your family. May they come and heal your son and bring you great joy, peace and love in your life. Hang in there and if you need to vent email at [email protected]. I'll be there for you. God's blessing and healing for your son and you. Karen