1 month post-op

Hi All, Thats right....1 month post-op today. I really have the idea that things would be better than this. A little info for you.....I started down this road Jan - 04at 240lbs, was approved by BCBS Oct - 04 and had my surgery on Dec 17, 04 at 223lbs. On Dec 28 I was in the ER here in Columbus and was sent back to Emory Hospital by ambulance and on Dec 29, they put a drain tube and bag in my old stomach (because it was lazy, they said). On Dec 31st I got out of the hospital with my drain bag. Went back to the see Dr Smith on Jan 11th 208lbs...he said that I need to have a tube study done on my drain....So Jan 25th I will go back to Emory for a tube study....if all is ok they will take the drain out that day, if not then they will do surgery again. Please don't get me wrong...I am loseing weight but I am SOOOO SICK all of the time. Today is 1 month and all I have done today is cry and sleep. I can't tell my family that I wish that I never had this surgery, because all I'll hear is I told you so. But right now I wish I never had this done. My husband has been a angel thur all of this and I feel so bad about putting him thur this...he has to do everything, plus work full time. He tells me "this to will past" when I am upset. Oh well, I guess I will be fine some day soon.....I hope. Thanks for letting me have a place to let it all out. Martha

I am so sorry you are having to go through this. If there is anything I can do, just let me know and I will do it. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and Love, Debra =^..^=

Martha, We will all be praying for you! I'm sorry this has been such a struggle, but keep looking at the prize - my grandmother always told me that "God doesn't give us anything we can't handle, only things to make us stronger." It may seem like crazy talk right now , but you will get better! Praying and rooting for you, Amanda

Amanda, Thank you so much.....Your Grandmother's saying is what got me thur in 1983 when I lost my right arm to cancer and in 1997 when my husband die, and it will get me thur this too. Thank you again for reminding me that "God doesn't give us anything we can't handle, only things to make us stronger". Martha

Hang in there Martha. There are reasons things are going so slow and complicated for you. We may not understand now but you will one day. I understand how you can't confide in your family and thanks for baring your soul for us. Your are in my prayers for your strength and health. I know it must be so hard mentally, but please don't give up - get up and say this is going to be a better day. And you are right, you will be fine soon, you are a strong woman for getting as far as you have. Keep the faith. God bless, Donna

Oh Martha... I am soooo sorry you have having such a rough go of it. I wish I knew what to say that would make you feel better, but I imagine only feeling better will do that for you. I CAN however, keep you in my thoughts and prayers... I DO hope things get better for you very very soon! -Tami

Martha, I can't begin to tell you how sorry that I am that you are going through so much. I know that things have just been awful for you, and if there is anything that I can do, please ask. I am sending warm thoughts your way, and will continue to have you in my prayers. Cathy

Thank you all, I know that I can always count on this board to be here. I Love You All, Martha

MARTHA IT WILL GET BETTER AND I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU PLEASE KEEP US UPDATES ON THE SITUATION AND WE WILL BE THERE FOR YOU

(((((((((((Martha)))))))))) You are so loved here.....remember that. You're in my prayers that you'll continue to gain strength and overcome this obstacle that's been placed before you! Please let me know if you need anything!! Dee Dee