A Bit Depressed-Need to Express Myself

Hi all, I am really feeling down and depressed, and I need to talk. The pain from this is worse than the two C-sections, tubal ligation, and Gastric bypass has ever been. It literally hurts to laugh, breathe, or cough. The one incision under my right breast is killing me. The percaset does not help, and I am not able to sleep. In addition, sleep is evading me. I STILL can not eat. I am having much difficulty with drinking and eating. I go back to the surgeon on Wednesday. I am having difficulty as this is my favorite time of the year. I enjoy the festivities, and the rush of the season. All week long, I have been sitting here trying to recouperate, and sit still. It is also the month that my dad passed away- it will be 6 years on the 21st. I try to keep myself active and in the spirit in order not to dwell on this. Kelli's surgery is scheduled for 8:15 on the 23rd. There was a bit of fear this week that she was having problems with her liver functionality. Tests show that she s ok. She will need to have an x-ray and then we will proceed with post op. I am trying so hard to stay focused and heal enough to spend the evening with her in the hospital. Typically I host XMAS dinner, but this year I will be unable to do so. This is also very frustrating to me. Thanks for allowing me to vent. I want to get through this and move forward. Worse things can happen I know. Denise

HI Denise. ((((((((((((((((((big warm hug))))))))))))))))))) I hope that everything gets better with you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers. Keep your heard up. God Bless, Tiffany.

Hi Tiffany Forgive me folks, but I did decide to take my meds as perscribed, which has kept me in a and state. I am trying to get back to norm, so I thank you. Much Denise

Hey Denise, I am so sorry it is so rough for you right now. I know what you mean. This is a good month and a bad month at the same time. My son was born today in 78 and placed for adoption. My mother died this month in 93 and my grandmother this past Christmas. If you will send me your phone number in an email we can talk if you want to. I will do what I can to help. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Debra =^..^=

Debra, You have always been my biggest supporter. I want to thank you so very much for all the and prayers you have given me through my recovery process. I am so very sorry about the losses in your life. Gosh, just when you think you have things to have sorrow for, then you hear this. And well , now I wish I could give you a big hug. Thank You SOOOOOO VERY much for your . I have your number and I will give you a call. Denise

Hey Denise.. So sorry you are having a hard time... I can appreciate how difficult it must be very difficult this time of year to be recouperating... Don't you worry about venting.... sure, worse things could happen, but when you are going through something like this, it doesn't FEEL like it could...and it's what YOU are going through....that's what we are all here for!! I hope you are up singing carols very very soon!!! Tami

Tami, I will be ok- I was just feeling really crappy. Today was a bit rough initially cause of the anniversary of my dad's death. However, I will be fine. I will be going to the surgeon tomorrow and praying we can get to the bottom of this. God Bless! Denise

Hi Denise I am so sorry you are having a tough time. I can tell from your posts online that you are a dear soul & I hate that this has been so rough for you. The holidays can be wonderful, however, they can bring on some sad feelings as well. I think you have just been bombarded with so much @ once. Unfortunately, only time will make this better, but I hope it helps knowing you have a lot of people out there that think you are a strong and wonderful person & are praying for you. Let me know if you need anything. God bless Angel

Thanks so much I am getting my mindset right. Just was really down. Thanks for the encouragement! Denise