Posted on Main Board but don't know how to move post here....

Just looking for a listening ear....feeling sorry for myself tonight.....can't come out tomorrow night hubby is working and I don't have a babysitter. Will someone copy my post from the main board here in case someone can cheer me up? or have me put out of my misery? Thanks. TB

Trixie, Here's your message: "Well, this sucks. And I'm sorry for the bad language. but it does. See, my kid's birthday is right about this time of year and so I remember that this time last year I called my church about getting a Stephen Minister ( a Stephen minister is a trained person who helps with Christian counseling) and my specific goal in working with this person was to help me get through the holidays (I was raised in a nest of human rattle snakes) and to help me do something about my weight. Well, she did help. She referred me to a local club with an indoor pool that offerred hydroaerobics and I joined and I have gone to the classes. My kids and my hubby (135 pounds since high school, just blessed to be naturally skinny genetically) but I went off and on my food program and had some more family stuff come up this summer and the long and short of it is I am still fat. Not only that, but my hubby's office only carries Aetna HMO or Kaiser and they are not offerring coverage in 2005 so even if I decided I wanted the surgery (and I am NOT sure that I do) I wouldn't have coverage for it. The main depressing event was that here in GA it is starting to get cold and the cold rains are coming in so today I unpacked my famliy's Fall clothes from last year and packed up the Spring and Summer clothes, well, the fall clothes I had packed up were the clothes I remembered buying last year and thinking to myself "this is the last time I will have to buy size 3X....this is the last time I will be embarrassed about my size because NEXT FALL I will be THIN. Well, it is NEXT FALL and I am still fat. Failed again.....and my hubby, who is trying to be supportive is saying, Well, maybe you could try something else.... But right now, I just can't listen to a "get up and go get 'em!" speech. And my Aunt, who did not "hem haw" around this year and made her decision and got all her ducks in a row six months ago has been approved and is having RNY on NOV. 17 and while I am happy for her (and apprehensive as well) I am also a little jealous because if I had not been such a coward and if I had done the leg work I would be having surgery too. So, I am pretty blue and feeling pretty sorry for myself right now. TB" Hey, Trixie, My hubby works with high schoolers, so, for me, "sucks" is not a bad word. I kind of understand how you feel because I have been up and down with my weight so much. Don't beat yourself up! Life happens! Sounds like you have a family who loves you, not to mention a supportive hubby, so you must be a pretty great lady!!! Right?!?!? We're here for you! Love, Becky

Thank you, Becky. I checked out your profile, you look great. TB

I wish more than anything you could come tomorrow You really need the support and as I've told you over and over I'm willing to call and talk with you. Please let me help you. Your friend Amy

Hi Amy. I thought I emailed you my address, email and phone number but maybe I am mistaken. I will try again. TB

Trixie Girl... How frustrating for you. I'm so sorry. I wish you could come tomorrow night, but keep in mind, we do this EVERY month! So, there will always be another for you to come to. Each month, there is a group that can't make it, but we know we will see them next time. Think positive and we will see ya in December! (fingers crossed) I must have been been brought up nearby to you, cuz those rattlesnakes infiltrated my young life as well. The number it does on your self esteem and self confidence turn us toward food as a comfort, as food doesn't say or do ugly things...at first... If you still want to have the surgery, please don't give up. For each of us, there is a plan and a reason for all things. While it may not be time for you to have your surgery now, there is a plan for you.... I know....you didn't want a chin up speech, but I guess I stepped in it anyway!! (Doesn't that just suck! LOL! I have teenage boys...that word doesn't scare me missy! LOL!) I guess the best thing I know to offer you is our love and friendship. If you want to talk, send me an email with your phone number and I will give you a call. I hope you feel better soon.... Take care of you girlie! -Tami

Thanks for the support, Tami. I read about Harriet. What hospital is she in? Can we send flowers `or cards or something? TB