Why so sad on a glorious day like today? (LONG)

Good morning, As some of you may already know, today is MY day. Yippee! I should be estactic. I do want to say if it wasn't for this board, I wouldn't have made it this far, so thanks to all for your great advice and patients answering questions. I am trying my best to hold my composure and not focus on the negative (family), but it is getting harder by the hour. I set myself up for the worse let down imaginable. I don't want to go into too many details at this time for fear I will give mysef a nervous breakdown, bottom line, my mother told me she would be here and backed out at 9:45pm last night. This is typical and I should have know better but I did let myself get siked up that she and my sister would come, I can't even focus on the new start on life I am giving myself for wondering why. Well, I will get off my soap box, I am sure there are worse things in life, everyone take care, I will post soon. Thanks for reading. J.

Hi J. I know how you feel, I want my mom to come when I have mine, but I know already that she will fine a reason not to.....but keep your head up. We are all here for you. Good Luck today, you are in my prayers. Let us know how you are doing. Martha

J., I know I am late in responding but I just wanted to say...give yourself permission to be happy for yourself. We don't always understand why our loved ones act or react a certain way. Sometimes it's not about us, it's about them. Your Mother may be very scared for you and just couldn't bring herself to be with you physically. Either way, this is your day. You are starting a new chapter in your life. Empowering yourself to take control and start a new life and working towards a new you. Surround yourself with people that are encouraging and inspirational. Get involved with a local support group and continue to be active here on the boards. It really does make a difference. Good Luck and God Speed, Tonya

J. Gwevonne, Why the long face - you're such a pretty girl! Well, I'm trying to say something a mother would! What a let down today...I understand, my Mom is the same...it was the same for my sinus surgery, my emergency gallbladder surgery...no mom!! It's times like these that you need your friends the most. I think you also need a dose of doggie love or kitty love...animals are the best for unconditional love, they are faithful and ALWAYS glad to see you - they can put an instant smile on your face!! So, here's a hug and a smile...and a nod of reassurance that your surgery is going to go without any problems! And I know that you are going to heal fast and without any complications - I just know it!! Just remember everyone has a guardian angel watching over them...and yours will be with you the whole time - you are never alone!