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Hey, Shree!!! I am four months out, and I am a bit less self-conscious. A big part of my embarrassment has been my up and down and up again weight loss. No one cares...I wish I didn't! I actually joined the choir at church for the first time in fifteen years... part of it was vocal cord nodules, but I could have gone back a long time ago. I guess I'm slowly starting to do things I love again...like being in a swimming suit in public (my own backyard with my hubby LOL). Does that make sense?
Sometimes I do see chats advertised on the main board. If that happens again, I'll e-mail you. I've never been to one!
Hugs,
Becky
Shree,
I guess that I am one of the older post ops here,my surgery anniversery is this month, and that will make it 2 years. The first year was VERY hard for me, yes, the weight loss was dramatic, but my mind never caught up with my body. I guess it is really hard to explain, people would see me, and expect me to be jumping over the moon with joy for how I looked. I really couldn't do that, I was always expecting the weight loss to stop, it was just too good to be true. I remember when I hit a plateau at 220. I would start to rationalize that I could be okay with this weight. The same thing happend at 200, 184, 162 ect...People I meet today are SHOCKED when they find out that I had Gastric Bypass, they all say the same thing, "You don't look that you could have ever been that big" Well I was!!Not only that, in my mind sometimes I still feel big, and maybe that's a good thing. My biggest fear at this point is to start gaining weight, does it stop me from losing my battle with my addiction to food? Sometimes, but now always. Well I'm sure that you can read that even after Two years I still struggle, and I guess that's why I am at this board...Hope to see you at the dinner on 10/9- It will be my first time going..
Cathy Martin