Confession

It's Confederate Memorial Day. An official paid state holiday!!!

Wow cool.  I work for the federal gov't.  We don't get that day. 

How come the schools aren't closed?????

because school schedules are made by the county and not the state

strike? what strike? I live in Norcross , GA my daughter  has school on Monday ......

That was going to be my advice for your son.  Don't do anything other than the basic necessities for him.  No food he likes, no favorite soda, call the cable company and get them to cut it off for a day or two.  And be strong and tell him it's your way or the highway.

Oh I so feel your pain I hav ea 15yr old girl who does the same thing , we have a dishwasher and  half teh time they  dont get done and the other half she  will do it  but wont rinse the dishes off when she puts them in she  just throws everything in there so  I took her Cell  phoen an dher Tv our of her room and told her  when she decides to  start doing what she is supposed to she will get them back and if she doesnt do it right I will take every dish out of every cuboard and she will wash everyone by hand  and will have  no outside contact  to the rest of the world till its done! sure enough it got doen  shoot the cell alone killed her ...lol sometimes I will also tell  her if she doesnt get them done and I have to keep telling her she will clean the apt from one end to the other  including scrubbing the bathrooms, they will get done..........munipulation works everytime cause you are beating them at there own game...lol

Sorry to hear you are feeling so rotten lately.  I hope that writing it down helped to get some of it out of your system.

I understand what you mean about being unproductive at work.  Since my fight started last year with the State, I know I haven't been as productive as I should be.  It was especially bad from about October thru March.  Now, I'm down to crunch time.  I have 8 work days (and not even all full days) to wind down my work year.  I will be back for teacher post-planning.  And I feel like I've been more productive in the last 1 1/2 weeks than I've been most of the year!

When you don't like your job, it makes things 100% worse.  We've all been there at some time or other.  It's very stressful and very depressing.  Unfortunately, you need the job for the insurance right now.  I would suggest looking towards after your surgery & recovery...then start looking for a new job.  And don't take something that simply gets you out of where you are now.  If you want to stay with the government, maybe you can find a position at a different office?????

I can't help you with the food dreams.  Food is something I don't usually dream about.

And if you'd like to send your son my way, my yard REALLY needs to be mowed!

LaShelle -

I've been off my computer for a few days...so sorry I missed this.

I'm so sorry you're going through this!  You sound like I was feeling last summer.  It didn't seem like anything was going right.  In my case, I knew my insurance wouldn't cover WLS, so I felt there was no hope for me to ever get the weight off.  I didn't seem to get pleasure from anything and was in a total rut.  Then I started going to support meetings and I found hope...and an amazing amount of support from people in all phases of the weight loss journey, many of whom I now call my friends.

I am also a person who doesn't talk about my feelings that much.  It's hard to open up....but it's so much eaiser with people who have "been there."

As for the failure, shame, guilt, etc.:  I think we all go through that to some extent.  I think that's why I didn't have the surgery a few years ago..  (I looked into WLS 3 years earlier.)  I figured if I ignored it, I wouldn't have to face those feelings.  But those feelings are part of facing the issue and getting better.

Anyway, please try to stay involved in the WLS process, with OH and any other support you can get.  It was 7 months from my first support meetings until my surgery.  (That's this time around...I looked into the surgery 3 years earlier but wasn't ready.)  It seemed to take forever...but looking back, it seemed so quick.

Call me or PM me anytime.  I'm here for you, LaShelle....as are so many others on this board.

-- Laura

Thanks Laura.   I guess we all experienced the blues sometime before surgery.   We should get together sometime and do lunch or something.