1 year later on the emotional roller coaster!!

Well it has been almost 13 months since my surgery. I wanted to update my profile earlier but emotionally I just wasn't sure exactly what I wanted to say. I have lost 133 pounds and weigh 156. I went from a size 28 to a size 8/10. My doc's goal for me is 150 and mine 135 and size 8. So I am really close to goal. I am extremely grateful for my surgery. I am able to live my life rather than just go through the motions. I have lately been going through a lot emotionally. I no longer can fill the voids or cover up the emotions with food. It just doesn't feel the same anymore. I know that is not true for everyone, but for me so far, it is no longer comforting. I don't even want any desserts anymore, though I loved them so much before. Unfortunately I am having a hard time with my emotions. I am like an addict with nothing to be addicted to. I don't like to drink, I don't smoke and my one addiction doesn't work anymore. I do take antidepressants and see my psychiatrist monthly. He and I were talking this past week and he was telling me that losing this weight does not solve all my problems. I knew that going into this surgery. I think subconciously I always thought if I could just lose this weight I would be happy. The weight was my excuse for everything. Now I have no excuse and am so confused about what to do. Before my surgery my live-in boyfriend and I discussed the fact that after one year I would be moving back to Florida and we would be splitting up after almost ten years. The last 3 years or so we have been living like roommates and friends. I am still living here and am supposed to move back to Florida in the next couple of months. Due to loneliness, I have checked out the dating pool. Because of the respect I have for my boyfriend's feelings I will leave it at that. This has been so emotional for me. I guess for so long I have used food to cover up my emotions, I don't know how to deal with them. At times it gets overwhelming for me. Although it has been over a year since my surgery, I feel that my emotional journey is just beginning. Again, I am so happy about my weight loss and lucky I haven't had any complications. So if anyone has gone through this and has some advice for me, I'd love to hear it!! Thanks, Susan

Susan, Yep it seems for many people the real stuff starts happening well after the weight loss is over or as you get to your goal. I know for even myself lately it's been very emotional. I don't see myself like I has wished, hoped I guess. It's extremely hard. The main thing is to be happy in life, you only have 1 life to live and you should be happy with it. I hope that things work out for you and you find the complete happiness you deserve. Congrats on all your weight loss successes! Amy