Just popping in...

Hey All, I havent been around much the past few weeks. Life has taken an interesting turn of events and I am dealing with some stuff on the personal front. My boyfriend and I split up about a month ago, that came on the tail end of dealing with him sending out a suicidal email to his family and closest friends and then refusing to handle his severe depression. I have done all I can do for him, even taking him in far too soon in our relationship to try to support him emotionally and help him financially. That turned out to be a BIG MISTAKE! Anyway, I can honestly say, I love him, but I was never truly in love with him, so I know this is the best for both of us. I never felt like he was "the one". But since everyone closest to me who met him really liked him and thought he was such a nice guy, I stuck it out thinking it would be a good relationship. Now I know that isn't any reason to hang in a relationship and I really need to find serendipity. My hope is that he will seek out some help for his emotional needs, but that doesn't seem to be happening and I'm so worn out trying to convince/rationalize with him, I have asked him to move out so we both can move forward. On top of that, I had some house drama which always comes with a cost...that never ends in my world, but at least I didn't get a sink hole like our dear friend, Tracey. And then another friend reached out to me for support and that took more emotions from me. I know I have a HUGE heart and sometimes that takes over my head and I wind up trying to rescue the world when I need to continue to focus on balance...being there for friends, but not sacrificing my own life, emotions, finances, etc. Funny that I know exactly what I am doing and yet, I still fall in the same trap sometimes. Anyway, this probably make little sense to many of you, but I wanted to let you all know I am back online, just not around as much. I can't commit to much right now because I am trying to coordinate a lot of house projects on the weekends (paintng, carpeting, landscaping, tiling, siding repairs, plumbing repiped, the list is endless) BTW, any suggestion on what to wear to a Rockabilly type Elvis wedding????? A good friend's sister is getting married and I am going but haven't a clue what to wear to that, I'm stumped on that one ! I leave for Vegas next Thursday, I've never been so this should be interesting! Well, I have to get moving, but I wanted to say hello and assure Heather and few others that I haven't abandoned the board, just dealing with some stuff here and havent been online much. Life is getting in the way of fun and free time right now, but I hope it turns around soon. Take good care, Amy

funny how you knew how I was feeling. I did think that you ran away on us. We all go threw things Amy. One of the hardest most easy words to ever say is NO!! I wish you the best and pray that you will find innerstrength to keep yourself first and foremost. You have come so far in the Journey of life. Remember that if you dont take care of yourself physically, mentally and emotionally no one else will. Sounds like you and the puppy need a day at the park to clear your heart and mind. Your poor condo. As bad as I want to own something of my own I see what other ppl in life go threw with the up keep on things and know it is a bigger job than it seems. I hope that all goes well with the repairs and that it dont sink your wallet too much either. Life is good over here jsut being pregnate and having terrible mood swings. but I am almost over this!!!! Best wishes and peace be with you! heather zapping all evil from around us!!!!

Girl, I was wondering about you!! Sorry that had to deal with that guy - hopefully he's gone and you're moving on. Keep focused on your journey and where you have come and accomplished. Don't lose it to life's daily grind and problems! You have come too far to get it out of whack. I've been noticing that those that are a few more months out are experiencing emotional issues or dealing with alot of stuff and not really talking about it. Personally I think the support meetings are about talking what we are going through and for one another to help us go through the struggles of obesity and the fat brain cause despite my weightloss sometimes I think I'm still fat and unattractive and am dealing with bulemia. On the house projects - they will get done...but don't overwhelm yourself with so many projects. As the adage says: One day at a time!! Pray that your heart heals soon!! Hugs, Ruthy

Amy, I would be honored to be able to support you in any way I can. I can help with house projects or just be an ear to listen. I think you have my phone numbers but if not let me know and I'll email them to you! Rhonda