please..I need help

April will be 2 years post op..I haave done god.so I thought..I am 5'2 at 119 lbs and I feel so fat.. lately I have been having thoughts of suicide.. I do not think I will do it..but I am consumed with the idea..I feel fat and miserable.. I am so depressed I do not no what to do..I need help our local support group is no longer available..I am just tired of the BS and I want my life to eand.. Any suggestions? I can't go to see a shirnk nor can I see my surgeon since I quit my job due to scholl....I have no insurance and eve=rything cost too much I feel all alone.. any ways any help will be some of assistance..thanks. Lesa

Please don't think those thoughts..Life is so worth living! If you'll email me, I'd be glad to talk to you more. [email protected] - I did want to mention that most schools have free counseling centers for their students and I sincerely hope that tomorrow morning you'll go in and talk to them. They can help or at least refer you to a low-cost/free mental health facility. OR if you feel really desperate call the suicide hot line. I believe this is the information for the one closest to you. Panama City Crisis Line Life Management Center Blountstown: (850) 674-8790 Bonifay: (850) 547-2472 Marianna: (850) 482-7441 Panama City: (850) 769-9481 I'll keep you in my prayers and again, if you want to talk or I can help you further, email me. (((HUGS))), Tooter

OMG tooter you are still here! WOW At least some things never change...I just read what I had written last night and I am so stunned..I had 3 glasses of zinfindale last night,in a depressive mood; I guess I wrote some deep things.. I must apologize.. Why yes,I feel alone..I don't see any help for me. I am healthy,I guess what may have triggered this was 1. alcohol 2.I ran into some people I haven't seen in nearly a year.. 2 different places.. and I get coments like..I see your gaining some weight back...I'm not.. and then another time later that same day I ran into someone I haven't seen since november and she says oh you look great.. you don't look anorexic any more.. I don't get it..I could tell my husband knew this bothered me.. I have been in school seems like forever now.. I can't wait to graduate in august.. I need to go see a dr but I can't afford too right now.. Things are tight with me having to pay for my own tuition, and losing my insurance didn't help me either..I need to go see my surgeon but can't until I get insurance..Thanks everyone for their support..I treied going to my local hospital but they no longer have gastric bypass support..

aw sweetie! I understand, really I DO! I hope you'll check out some of the resources that people below have listed and seek out some help and support from others. It is there, but sometimes we have to hunt for it. Most states have a state mental health - in WA state they call it Comprehensive Mental Health - and they go on a sliding scale fee (some are free) for therapy/counciling. ((((HUGS)))) drop me an email if you ever want to talk.

Hey Lesa, Did you know that often times when we feel this way we are suffering from a chemical imbalance and it just makes us feel like it is US when in reality there is a solution!! There are a lot of people here including me who KNOW you are a wonderful bright lovely woman and all of us are RIGHT HERE for you. Please feel free to click on my e-mail and use it ANY time. I'm here to talk with as well. Sometimes the solutions to life's problems are only a phone call away! {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}} Pat

Please please dont think like that! There are so many places to get FREE help. Local state Mental Health Clinics. If you are feeling this way there are services available regardless of insurance or not. Also alot of the churches will offer free counseling as well. Reach out and someone will reach back. You definetly need to speak to someone and explore these feelings further. Try your local crisis line they have lists on hand of places to get help now... please reach out... its ok! Hugs to you Angel J

Lisa, First you are not fat you have done very well and took your life back when you had surgery. You wanted a better life remember when your journey started , and look at you now. Please do not do anything that is going to be unforgiven by yourself or the Lord. Lisa, there has to be a help line where you are through the hospital , or your doctor. Call your doctor, Let them know your situation surely they will offer help. And if your worried about the money thing don't be, they can bill you later, they are worried more about your health. Lisa hang in there it can not all be bad, you have made it this far you can make it a lot farther. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Lisa, Man, trust me, at 119 lbs you are so not fat! As specially for your height. You should look wonderful! Please come to this message board for help and support. We care. We can talk to ya!!! Don't do anything drastict, it's so not worth it. Hugsssss, Grace

Hi Lisa, live just down the highway! In FWB. E mail me. I would be happy to talk to you. I will give you my phone number if you drop me a note. There are a lot f people in the area who have had wls. We must have had surgery around the same time. Laurie

Hi Lisa, live just down the highway! In FWB. E mail me. I would be happy to talk to you. I will give you my phone number if you drop me a note. There are a lot f people in the area who have had wls. We must have had surgery around the same time. Laurie