Could really use a hug.

So, on a sad note, I won't be updating my profile anymore. I'll be recreating it, but anonymously, and I won't be allowing anyone to search for my profile. Its been a rough week. A family member found my profile, and now, I don't feel as though I can write what I feel, or say what really matters to me. She decided to snoop for me, after I HAD to tell her about my surgery. Its a long and drawn out story, perhaps I'll share it some time, but for now, I just want my privacy back. My profile was only a reflection of my thoughts, and my journey, but she felt it was something she deserved to read, because she's family. I'm really sad about this, I've thouroghly enjoyed being able to write my feelings, with out worry. I could really use a hug today.

{{{{{{{{{{{ Hug}}}}}}}}}} and a too I am sorry that you feel that you can't continue to post in your pro-file any more.... I hope that all is well with you and your family member that did the snooping.. Cyndee

thanks for that. I wish I could say yes, we are fine, but we aren't. It just really hurts, ya know? This is my decision, and my life. She has nothing to do with this portion, but in her "need" to know me better, she chooses to go behind my back. However, the greater good has been done here, this site has allowed me to connect with someone I wouldn't have found otherwise, and for that I'll take this. Maybe one day I can reopen it, I really love this board, and the people so much.

Actually, I've decided to keep my profile, but it is no longer public. I'll update you guys, and if I have pix, I'll post a link. I can't leave this board, it keeps me sane!

Just hang in there... I see you are having your surgery next week is that right?? Cyndee

nope, 3/27/06. Soon enough though!

Well Congrats to you on your up coming surgery.....I am 8 months out as of the 15th of this month and the first few weeks hurt but you'l forget all about it when you start losing Cyndee

I can't wait to be there!

Oh Amy I'm so sorry. Big, big hugs. Even if no one else can read your profile you can pour your heart out on it and we will love you and support you through your journey. Timing is ironic - my oldest sister who lives 3000 miles away and who hadn't replied to the email I sent telling her about my surgery and Dr.Jawad three weeks ago called this afternoon to tell me how afraid she was for me.....we ended up talking for almost 2 hours about everything to do with the surgery and the lifelong committment to a healthy lifestyle and by the end she was so loving and supportive....she said I had answered all her fears and she would support me all the way. Hang in there, March 27th will be here before you know it. Nancy

Thank you sweetie! I was forced to tell this person, I wasn't going to tell her until after the surgery was out of the way, I just hope that she can get behind me, instead of trying to slow me down.