I Had A Dream

I'm a year out, but just recently I had a dream that someone handed me a glass of soda and I took a mouthful of it before I realized what it was. So there I was with soda in my mouth and I had NO idea what to do with it. It was frightening to me and I was so surprised that I had dreamed about this especially since I was never a big soda drinker anyway. About 3-4 months ago, so that would have been about 8 or 9 months post-op, I dreamed that something had gone terribly wrong with the surgery and I was actually fat again!! I was so disappointed that I was back to my former shape and size. When I woke up I was SOOO relieved to see my skinny, somewhat bony upper body, you have NO idea!!!! I guess my dreams are giving a voice to my inner fears about my future and keeping the weight off. I just heard on Friday about a friend who had the surgery who is gaining all her weight back and is apparently well on her way to doing so!! This is my biggest fear! I wanted my friend to do so well and I guess she isn't but she doesn't post here or OH.com and I know she also doesn't go to any support groups, so possibly these opportunities give us an edge? The surgery is a tool and it's possible to outeat it! We have to use everything in our arsenal to keep ourselves healthy! Next week I'm even joining an addiction 12-step program. I figure I will do everything I can do! Jan

ok you started it.. I too had a dream about soda just a few nights ago... I dreamed that I was going to have some sort of surgery that required me to eat these pineapple shaped ice cube thingys to numb my insides any way I opened a cke and drank it down then I realized that I not only drank a coke it was not a diet coke so While on the table waiting surgery I kept thinking I am going to start dumping in the middle of it and I would wake up to a mess... then I woke up and I was in my bed with no pineapple ice cubes and no coke of any kind. That was soo strange... Cyndee

I hope I don't start dreaming about ice cubes now!!!! Jan

Jan, I haven't had any food dreams since my surgery but I have had them in the past when I was on a conscious food plan. A close friend of mine at the time told me it was my subconscious acting out. She reminded me that it was better for my subconscious to act out than for me to act out consciously! I would certainly agree with that. I have two fears: 1. Since I started so large (386.2) that I won't lose all the weight I want to lose. 2. That I'll eventually gain all the weight I lost back. I am doing everything I can to insure my success. I'm following my surgeon's food plan, I'm excerising 3X a week with a trainer, I'm getting my fluid in. I'm going to a weekly support group and I stay in touch with other bypass patients who are now my friends. All this to say... I need to let go of the fears. Sometimes holding on to them so closely only serves to attrack them to us. I writing this as I tell myself to let go! I will continue the process. Thanks Jan for getting me to think about this. Rhonda -146.5 lbs

Jan....dreams are really weird. For the first time in my life...I had the same dream over and over. And it was a progressive dream. I say was...because its stopped now. Hopefully. You know...I lost my husband to cancer just 7 weeks after my WLS. And a year later...to the day....I met Doug. And we have been together ever since. I've had this same dream about 7 times now.... It began with my Ron coming back. In the the first one...I KNEW I had to go with him...and I was sad for Doug. I didn't know how to tell him that Ron was back and I would have to leave .... The dream progressed until I had to tell Ron that he was dead....and I was sorry...but I would not go with him and I would not leave Doug. I have not had the dream since. I'm sure it was me letting go of Ron....but it really shook me up each time. And Ron was always young and healthy and in his Army uniform. Weird. As for dreaming about food....I almost never dream about food or gaining weight back..... I have a food addiction too......recognizing it is half the battle... Hugs Charlie

I certainly agree with you that your dreams about Ron was your way of working it out that it was ok to let him go! WOW, that was really quite powerful and I'm glad you found someone now! Jan

I know it's bad but I do have diet soda sometimes and the other was grazing yet I knew I was doing wrong but coming here to OH and going to the support meeting help me come back on track. I think I think more about food and eating now then when I was fat - though no food dreams per se. If you notice Amy Williams posted a link that says Why we eat? It's also on the main board and they are starting a forum for food addiction which I want to be a part of cause I need to get as much info as I can to stay grounded and focus and on the straight and narrow! I don't want to plan a revision and yet at this point I'm not even at goal...so I know I need to work harder at this. Let's keep connected all together!

I'm also interested in the "Why We Eat" forum, but this messageboard is so difficult to nagivate that so far, I can't find that forum if it yet exists and it's nearly impossible to get back to anywhere. I do wish this board was more user friendly, but at least the people here are!! Jan