Tired of it all...

Im tired of it all - tired of the fat jokes, the fat comments, tired of the pain I feel every day and tired of having to alter my life b/c of my obesity! Last week I went to Disney and was clearly made fun of by a man and his wife when I had a hard time getting through the teensy weensy tourstile. Not only that but I was trying to find a quick pair of pajama pants when in Wal Mart one night and a women tried to "help" me by telling me the big sizes are in the back! Just tonight I had to forfeit "hanging out" b/c my pants that were once huge were killing me in the waiste and in the groin area. I had to have my girlfriend pick me up at the door of the store b/c I was too hurt to walk to the car across the parking lot, then I come home and hurt too much to fix the sheet on my bed. Those are a few of the things that bothered me in the last 2 weeks alone due to this weight!!!! I cant take it. I was denied by Aetna last month and Im appealing them in July....I need prayers, advice, anything to get approved for this Bariatric Surgery b/c I cant take living like this anymore. I dropped something in the store and couldnt even pick it up - I hurt all night after working all day even on a light day at work (hairdresser) - I hurt so bad all of the time and I just can take it anymore.

Gina, I can totally feel your pain~emotional and physical. Prior to my surgery, I went thru that ALL the time. I recall how often I felt like the center of attention because of my weight and then in other situations, I was completely invisible to people because of my weight. I avoided theme parks and many public settings because I didn't want to put myself in an uncomfortable or embarrassing situation. Girlie, I know how frustrating, painful and miserable life could be. Part of me doesn't ever want to forget those times, other parts of me wants to put them behind me forever. I can't offer much advice, other than to keep plugging away and appealing and try everything in your power to try to embrace a high protein, low fat diet and exercise program even now while you are in the waiting process (I know that probably seems impossible right now) because anything you can do now to make it better on your body, usually benefits your health, ego and self-esteem in the process. Hang in there, have faith and stay focused on getting healthier and it will happen. Don't give up! Amy -180lb

Hi Amy, I was just looking at your picture and OMG! there is your collar bone showing in picture. How exciting is that!! That is one of my greatest desires, to see my collar bone showing through all this fat. I just had to comment. Keep up the great work, you are such a wonderful encourager to this site. My date for Dr O to do my surgery is 8/3 and I can't believe it is only 7 weeks away. It's like a dream to me. Lori

I am so sorry that our world has gotten this bad. We live in a crule and evil world. We have all experienced these things. I agree with amy. Start a high protien diet and a excerise program. I am not asking you to start off walking miles. start with blocks. anything is better than nothing. my toughts and prayers are with you, heather

Don't give up Gina!!!!!!!! I was denied at first from Aetna also. Then I appealed and was approved in a week. I know it can get discouraging but anything worth achieving takes alot of work and patience. It has been almost 13 months since my surgery and I am down 137 pounds. I have about 20 more to go but I am happy right here. Don't give up the fight. It will be worth it in the end. Hugs, Christine

Gina, Try your best to get your surgery paid by your insurance company. If it all fails and you just cannot afford the surgery here in the US. Get in touch with me, I can help you have your surgery over seas, if you would be interested. That's what I did. Good luck to you and rememeber that we all have been there... Vivi 20 lbs. from goal!!!

hay girly... 20 pounds huh? your doing great!!! im so very proud of you

I understand your pain completely! Everytime when I go to the store and people stare at me for being in my scooter to do shopping, or everytime I use my cane to help me walk a short distance. One time I over heard an ignorant woman say, "that's pure laziness going right there", meaning me on my scooter. I wanted to say something back , but knew it would be of no avail and I didn't want to be as ignorant as she was. One time, I was using my golf car to walk the dog, and another ignorant woman said to me, "well, that is laziness walking the dog--letting the dog do all the work, why don't you walk the dog?" Well, let me tell you I told her why I used the golf car to walk the dog and then she felt embarassed. I too have been on this conquest for a l-o-n-g time (2 yrs+) and hopefully this time will be the end. Keep pluggin' along and keep trusting God. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless, ~Roiann

Gina, we all can sympathize with you because we've been there!!!! People can be nasty - you're in my prayers..but don't give up...this surgery is truly a gift from "heaven" and to obtain it sometimes it takes some work. Once things start going in the right direction - you'll see it's been worth it. I just wish I had a quick nasty response to all those rude people. But they will continue - even afterwards. For example: once i started losing people are always looking at the changes and have been for the most part nice but one gal would ask me every week, how much do i weight or how much i lost. I finally got tired and said to her: " I don't weight every week, do you?" and walked away. After that she never asked again...so you're gonna get the remarks before, after and during....we just have to been strong in dealing with these idiots - they don't understand and feel the pain we're in.

Hi, I feel your pain as I was in your shoes not too long ago. I say keep fighting I have AETNA and they will not make i easy for you but if you have everything they require just keep going at it until they approve you. Good luck and never give up. Gesell RNY 11/26/2004 297/202/155 -95 lbs