Feeling blue on my 1 year anniversary???

Hellooooo,,, today is my 1 year anniversary,,, looking back what a awesome year it has been. Why am I feeling blue today, I should be estatic,,, I even dressed up a bit, well looking kinda cute, did my hair and make up,,,,, I look pretty damn good, but why am I blue inside? I gotta get out of this funk... I started out at 316lbs,, now I am 187.5lbs,,, of course I wi**** was down more (must be the reason for the funky mood)... I have lost a total of 63.5 inches! This includes my chest, waist, hips, R arm, L arm, L thigh, R thigh only... lets sseeee 63.5 that equals 5.2 feet, that is a good way to look at it..... I am kinda mad at myself for feeling so down today,,, come on and help out a girl that is stuck in a rut!!!!! Christy Lap RNY 316/187.5/145

Girl you look great! I saw your profile a while back and thought omg WOW she looks good and healthy. Think about it 316 to 187 thats a big deal. I am so happy for you!. About the feeling blue.. have you ever been depressed before like on meds for it or anything? Talk to your doctor. I was told I suffer from clinical depression and i have been taking meds since i was 17 and im 33 now. But anyway behave and GIRL GO OUT SOMEWHERE AND HAVE SOME FUN TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even if you just go for a drive or to the local wal mart or something... lol.. or heck even a park or tonight get dressed nice and go to the beach if your near it and sit and watch the sun set.. i use to do that when i lived in Seminole near Indian Rocks Beach. YOU GO GIRL! BEST WISHES , EMILY

Hi Christy...sorry you're feeling down. I am having that kind of day too...must be something in the air or something...I have nothing to be down about! I can't wait to be able to tell the world that I lost almost 130 pounds!!! That's AMAZING!!!! You look fantastic and healthy! Keep up the great work!!! Laurie

Christy, your beautiful and healthy young woman, a fraction of your former self. you did it, Remember everyone loses at his/her own pace, follow the rules, exercise , and trust your body. My god what a success you are a 128 lbs gone forever that is fabulous ! you are amazing, dont short change yourself. Congratulations - AnnaMarie

Dear Christy, Just took time to see your profile and your photos tell an amazing success story! The blues can come when we realize we are entering an unfamiliar world: a world where we live in healthy, normal, attractive bodies; and we have no real history or comfort in this new reality. We have left behind the familiar world of being morbidly fat where food is either the ENEMY or the COMFORTER, where we abuse ourselves and receive the abuse of others, of telling ourselves that "THE REAL ME" is NOT the body sustaining us so those who love us despite our bodies have proven to our satisfaction that they must truly love "the real" us. Perhaps you're experiencing a deferred mourning, a letting go of the "old" you - 1st anniversaries can do that. Be kind to yourself under allll cir****tances, Christy. Thank your body for its amazing & ongoing will to transform and embrace healthiness. It's OK to weep for the pain you've endured and the joy you are experiencing, as well as the gift of hope that is your future. It's OK to release those sacred tears. You've earned the right! You've also earned the right to laugh and play and dream wonderful dreams! Yay, Christy! Lovingly, Lauralyn Lap RNY 2/13/03 @ size 3X, today @ size 8!