The Reasons behind the Gatric bypass surgery..........

I just wanted to share my experience with you. I had my surgery Aug.2003 and since the day of surgery I have lost 120 lbs. Since the day of surgery I am proud to say I have not taken one pill for my diabeties. Now to the difficult part. Since my surgery I have become bulimic. The reason for this has been out of fear of going back to being the person I was before. And also to safisfy my need to look good for others. Recently I had a wake up call when I vomited blood. This scared me so much I have decided to get help. i want to be able to eat and not think of getting fat. Just enjoying food again. Sometimes I feel I just eat because I have to, not because I want to. This makes me feel really sad. I know I am not the only out there that feels this way. Is there someone out there that can relate please respond.......

Santia, I can't relate to the bulimia - I'd rather have a root canal than throw up, but I know admiting you have a problem is always the first step to dealing with it. Please seek professional help immediately!! An eating disorder like Bulimia or Anorexia can be deadly for someone with a "normal" stomach, but for those of us that have had wls the risk is even greater. If you're like most of us, your goal for having wls was to get healthier, not just to look better. Try to remember that and do whatever you must in order to become a healthier and happier person. Good luck! You'll be in my prayers. Vickie J.

Santia, I don't have this problem but I am very concerned that you do. Please seek professional help now! I will be praying that everything gets straightened out for you and that you get back on track. Blessings, Lois

Thank you for all your prayers! I am taking the steps to getting counseling.

about 3 months out fo surgery i had the same feelings... i thought to my self why am i doing the same thing that got me fat in the first place ( eating) so i just didnt... until i got sick.... i hope you the best and be very honest with the person who is helping you... oxoxo

Santia, My name is Lauren, and I had sugery December 15, 2004. I was bulimic before for about 3 years. And it went away for about 3months, but I am back at it.(not for 2 weeks now though) I just want to make my self throw up all the time....Even when I havent eat something bad for you. I just feel that need... i think mine is more of a control issue, I have been to 2 doctors about it, and have admitted to everyone, that hey...I am bulimic, and some how I can't make myself stop, I have lost 123lbs in 5months, and look great. I 2 throw up blood, and have sore throats alot. I'v even met girls that have runined their teeth, and I still continue to do this to myself...Just the otherday, I promised myself, and my boyfriend I woulnd't do this anymore, I will get my life under control, and not this this bulimia control me...ANd believe me it did...I would do anything to throw up after eating, I mean ANYTHIGN, i would go out to my car with a bag, go into the woods next door, resturants, people's houses...I just HAD to do it. But I am ready to stop...I have made this commitment to myself and my family, that I will no longer do it. Also after surgery, I havent been able to really throw up? it's more of just a foam when i do it...But for me, it's the action of doing it...and knowing I have control of it...No one else...Anyways, we could help each other...I havent thrown up in 2 weeks today... And will no longer allow myself that. I will do anything i have to do, to avoid a situation where I think to myself, omg i have to throw up, like right now..It's weird how i would act...ANYWAYS, we can get through this together. Good luck, if you need anything please contact me. Have a good day, Lauren