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This is the 1st day of June and only 12 more days until surgery, and you would think that I would be so excited, but infact today I have felt so depressed. I can't really explain it, just so many uneasy feelings. I guess it's normal but still I'm kinda on the edge and sharp. I'm grateful and happy to be so close to being a loser, but I'm afraid that maybe I'm setting myself up for a big let down, like what if I don't lose the weight and if I do, what will I do about the extra skin, I HATE surgery and could not bear the thought of having plastic surgery, maybe I'm over reacting but I'm scared. I just want to be happy and look forward to each new day, now I just exist. I feel like I'm going to cry any moment. I hope tomorrow is a better day, and to top of the bad day that I've had the hospital called and said that they just wanted to remind me of the co-pay for the hospital, I KNOW ! Please give advise, is this normal? Jerrie

Hi Jerrie, I am sorry that you are feeling so blue. I was a basket case after reading the memorials section of the site. I was SOOO sad and constantly second guessed my thoughts about the procedure. I finally wrote letters to my kids, mom, husband and friends and it really made me feel better. I have decided to be happy at this opportunity and am truely ready to take the risk of "dying trying to live, then live with my body trying to die." I think I understand how you feel. I have gone through these emotions and have less then 3 weeks to go through it all again. I think we are normal. As for the extra skin, I am hoping that since I was able to get the approval so easily for the surgery, that they will be as easy with the ps if needed. Good luck and feel free to email me if you want to chat, cry, or whatever. [email protected] Laurie

Laurie, Thank you so very much for the words of encouragement, I know that I need to take a deep breath and take one day at a time. My thoughts will be with you also. Not much longer now. Thanks for listening... Jerrie

I know the feeling , some days I just want to run the other way and say forget about it .This is our rollar coaster ride , hopefully it will only make us stronger .I have been told that is all part of the hard times that we all go through.It is a big step and there is alot going on besides our day to day lives that we must try and manage.I would love to say take it one day at a time and it will be okay.I know when people tell me - at that time I am like ok , right. But after a few hours or the next day it is a little better.I wish I had a better answer for you but I want to let you know that you are not alone and there is atleast one other person out there that feels like you are felling right now - What is it that they say --- This too shall Pass ! Smiles and hugs ---- MaC *#*

MaC, I love that saying "This too shall Pass". I guess I just needed to know that I wasn't crazy and I just need to stop and regroup. I have a wonderful life ahead of me and IT will be great, Thanks for help... Jerrie

OK Jerrie Take a deep breath.... IN AND OUT!!!!!! This is normal you read it alot... But with me all I though about was this was gonna be the last day of me being FATTTTTTTT!!! I was all SMILES and Happy... Everyone was going crazy cause I was not scared.. I was sitting up on that bed ready for them to come get me and take me to OR... All I could think about was when I wake up I would be on the loosing side... And let me tell you its a great side to be on... Yeah it is a roller coaster till you get use to it but its great... Wish you lots of luck and keep us posted... I'm still waiting to hear from Dr Nyes office about my TT waiting on insurance still.. They said it would take 4 to 6 weeks and the 5th will be 6weeks... So maybe I will hear soon... ALSO just incase nobody has told you yet... Make sure you have your wife or somebody do your mesurments so as your loosing you can mesure too... So when you don't see the scales moving you will still see the inches falling off.... I do mine every month... And loving it..... BEST WISHES TO YOU!!!!! Jennifer

Hi Jerrie--You know I researched this surgery forever and I got frightened when I got approval and had my date. I just went and looked at your profile and it sounds like you have been heading toward this goal for a very long time. Are you confident that this is the only choice for long term weight loss? I know that for me, that was the bottom line. I can tell you that in the first week or two after the surgery when the reality hit me, the one thing that kept me going was knowing that this had been my only choice--a last resort. As far as the skin goes--I have lots of excess skin, but it still looks way better then the fat did. For the most part the skin can be hidden--the fat never could. I feel so healthy and normal now that the fact that I am not perfect is of small concern. I hope everything goes well for you. I will be looking forward to reading your posts keeping us informed of your progress. Remember--it really is one day at a time and use your time to develop good habits you will be able to live with forever--because it is forever. Take care and good luck.

Lynda, Thanks for the reply, today is a new day and I feel 100 % better, I have researched wls for over 2 year, and the last year I've been really gathering all information, I have tried many diets and I really do feel this is right thing for me to do for "me".. Thanks again... I will hold my head up high and keep positive thoughts.. Jerrie

Hi Jerrie, I'm glad to see you are feeling much better today...it's amazing what a good nights sleep can do! If you need a shoulder to cry on or a ear to listen, feel free to call on me. I see we have another June WLS sister in P'Cola-same doctor and all-it would be nice to stay in touch...the three of us would be great local support for eachother. Have a fun weekend!!! Laurie P