Confused and Scared

I has WLS in St. Louis in 3/01. Did great- lost 125 pounds- and settled in at 155. Got to 160 and still felt good... Lots of life events changed and I have gained over 25 pounds in the past year. The last week I have stopped drinking any carbonated drinks, gave up alcohol. But I don't know... I messed this chance up so bad. I am 52 and now have a 5 year old that is my life.  I have to be here for him and him not be embarassed by me, I feel like such a failure !!!

You gained twenty five but you're still down 100 lbs. 

You gained just over two lbs a month.  Why can't you work to loose 2 lbs a month starting right now?

You've made a start giving up problem items.  Why can't you attack your diet the same way?

You're tool is still there and working because 80% of the pounds stayed off.  Chin up, fix your attitude and take some action right now.  You have not blown it but you still can if you don't toughen up for you and your baby. 

I speak rough but it comes from a place of love.  You've worked so hard to get where you are.  Don't sink into such a state that a setback becomes your undoing. 

Thanks... I think I wasn't plain though... I went from 275 to 148- settled in at 155 and felt good but then it started adding on... Now I am at 200 again... I'll start working hard and see what I can accomplish. Thanks.. I know I'll be in touch.

Please do be in touch.  I can be an accountability partner if you'd like.  There is no reason why you can't accomplish this since you already know what it takes. 

You were very clear but my point is this:  You've had a setback, not defeat.  You have 75 lbs of succes still going for you.  Not 80% perhaps, but over 60% of your weight loss is still gone. 

Anyone would be depressed re gaining 45 lbs, but you're self aware and you are being proactive which is why you will be able to do this.  I'm no Pollyanna but your glass is half full. 

I read the posts of one woman struggling after twice regaining everything, first wls and a revision.  You are not waiting to take action. 

We know the drill, high protien, low carb, low cal, low fat, plenty of water and supplements.  Its a struggle and I'm sure its harder the second time around.  Scared and confused is good because that fear is spurring you to action.  The danger is in complacency and doing nothing.   

We had people over this weekend so I knew there was no way to get things started the right way. Monday am I am going back to basics with  the 5 day pouch test. with liquids , etc- just like in March /2001. My husband knows and is supportive and my little boy, I told him Mommy may get grouchy but she is trying real hard to get rid of her tummy. So now he is explaining to me that I can only have soup juice and jello  tomorrow and not eat soup !!! KIS !!!
My Father in law- who I adore called this am as we are planning a trip to see hima ndhis wife next summer (they live overseas) It was just the thing I needed to hear- his voice. He doesn't know about all the weight gain- and hopefully there is no need for him to.
Thanks M.S.W.- You are my accountability partner. I'll send you and update tomorrow...

Okay- On Monday started the 5 day pouch test. Did water,water and did I mention water plus protein drinks and sugar free jello. Had to have some caffiene to avoid the dredded caffiene headache. It's now  Tuesday morning and I am beginning to feel dragging a bit. Much more energy yesterday. Have to get out and get to work early this am so hopefully that will keep me busy although much of my time was spent eating in my car so that will bring back memories.
Positively, I looked at the scale this am and was down a pound....

Continuing the 5 day pouch test. Tuesday I did liquids again.. NO problems with protein drinks or even the loadsof water that I am not used to.... Today was the eat soft protein but no drinking 30 before and 30 after. That has been hard but I have made it through day 3 with no slip ups. While the test says it isn't developed to  lose weight, it has been a nice incentive to see it on the scale. I have not been hungry and have actually went walking 2 days straight with hubby and son as well as working.

DEB? I was reading your post and wondered were you are... slip in and give an update, there is always someone reading.... more so in lurker mode i guess :)