Month 11
Thank you. You are so sweet. I try to contribute when I can. The boards here on OH have been such a tremendous factor in my life the last couple of years. I know my surgery is very different from the surgery most people on this board have had or will have but there are some things that we all have in common.
Yes there have been many changes. I think one of the biggest changes is I can walk without getting tired or winded. There is a spring in my step again. And then there are the little things -- like my size! I am now wearing size 6 jeans and I have bought size small skirts. I think once I have my plastics -- I will be in even smaller sizes. I say this because some smaller sizes fit in the hips but are a little too snug in the waist. It is just amazing. I am still rather intimidated by clothes shopping. I am not used to going to the misses department; there are entirely too many choices now! Oh and all of my jewelry is falling of of me. My bracelets are huge and just last night I thought I had lost my three stone diamond ring. We went out to eat and when we got home I took off my watch and realized my ring was not on my finger. Man, was I in a panic. I found it though. I had bagged up my left overs and there was my ring in the bag with the take-out containers. I moved my band to my middle finger some time ago. Now I am not going to wear any of my rings until I get them sized. There is also the pride in my DH's eyes when he looks at me or talks about how much weight I have lost. He loved me fat and he still loves me, so the surgery did not effect that aspect of our relationship, but now he is just so proud of me.
I am the same person I was 130lbs ago. I look in the mirror and I see changes -- but it is hard to get a frame of reference for my size. Before I could have looked at a crowd of people and been able to pick out someone who was about my same size. Now I cannot do that. I was in a store looking at size 8 shorts not so long ago and another woman was looking at the same size and I remember I thought to myself -- she must be looking for someone else because she is so tiny. Then I saw her trying on the shorts. I thought to myself what is the deal here -- I am not that small. But I guess the reality is, that I am that small. Eventually I know I will get a grasp on this -- but for now it is just a little strange. Your surgery is just around the corner. Are you getting nervous or excited yet? Good luck. I hope that your surgery is successful and that you have an easy recovery. Red
Jo Ann
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