random thoughts....

hey guys... how are yall? well im 2 years post op... im loving life.. today i layed 8 bags of mulch.. planted 8 plants... washed and waxed my truck... and raked my whole yard... there are some things i still dont understand... why do i think im still fat when i KNOW im hot... i still have some HUGE insecurities with my self... if im good enough... will i be someone... why this why that... i really dont like to eat... i dont like the feeling of texure in my mouth... but when i eat... i eat to much... go figure... i wish i could just drink my food... i dont think ill ever understand that... i feel so bad for bigger girls... i just wanna hug them... i wish i could tell them that it would be ok if they just had WLS... but i dunno... its none of my busn... i love work.. i hate school... i love what im going to school for... just hate school... but i couldnt have done it if i was still fat... i dont sleep cause i have to go to school... then i go to work... 16 hour days are rough... but i couldnt do it if i was fat... anway... enough rambling... hope yall are well alexa

deep thoughts by Alexa g....

Sounds familiar!

You are so funny! Congrats to you! You're a totally healthy, normal 20-something year old. If you weren't asking yourself all of those self exploration questions you'd be in a league of your own. Wait....maybe you're in a league of your own for different reasons. lol LIVE IT UP!

Hi Lexa, Just hang in there. School will be over soon. I too still have a "fat" brain. I find my self looking at people & going " am I that size?" or "am I bigger than her/him". I gues I am still trying to figure it all out. By the way..are you going to Orlando?,...I am trying to "hitch" ride up so that I can get to the meet & greet on Friday. I will be happy to chip in for gas. Let me know Toni