4 Months ago today ....

sparkles
on 7/26/06 10:51 pm - North Richland Hills, TX

4 months ago today I was terrified. My husband was by my side...and as a newly wed, I wondered what he would do if I didnt wake up. I wondered if I'd ever have children, I wondered if this would really work. I wondered if he'd still love me if it did... or if it didn't. I wondered if the surgeon and nurses were talking about me like a fisherman and his catch.. man..look at this whopper! I wondered if I'd be strong enough to do this. I wondered what everyone at work was thinking. I wondered if things would ever feel normal to me, of if I'd always be slightly off key. When I woke up, I was, first of all, glad to be alive, and to have my husband by my side. Then I was miserable.... what had I done to myself?! Was vanity really worth the price of all this pain... but vanity wasn't the only reason I had done this... I slept most of the day, walking only two or three times. My husband slept in the hospital bed, and I in the recliner beside it. It was just easier for me. Fast forward 4 months to today... I've lost over 80lbs, but don't know how much. I've fully healed, and all I have left are little puprle marks on my stomach. I'm wearing 2 -4 sizes smaller than I was before. I have more energy than ever, and can walk up a flight of steps, with out gasping for air and stopping half way to catch my breath. I can walk around Disney for over 14 hours with out feeling like I'm going to die. I can ride a go cart with out an extender. I can eat "normal foods" but dont feel the need to eat all the time. I'd rather have broccolli than mashed potatoes. I'd rather have grilled or baked foods than fried foods. Pizza is no longer my friend. I've come a long way. I like who I'm becoming. I like to look nice. Others are starting to notice me... Men are hitting on me (though I'm a happily married woman... its never a bad thing when they notice!!

) Things are starting to happen.... and this is only the beginning... LOOK OUT WORLD... HERE I COME!

Sarahlicious
on 7/27/06 12:42 am - Miami Shores, FL

RNY on 04/07/03

Congratulations on all your accomplishments!

Sarah Margaret

sparkles
on 7/27/06 12:58 am - North Richland Hills, TX

RNY on 03/27/06

Thanks!!

Jo Ann
on 7/27/06 1:00 am - Orlando, FL

Revision on 05/31/06

YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!

You are doing it!! I can remember when you first started posting on Dr. J's board before you had surgery and I look at where you are today and WoW!!! I am just so proud of you!! You have come so far and have accomplished so much and there is so much more to come for you!! Great wonderful things!! You are an inspiration!! You keep going girl and don't ever give up even with the bumps in the road along the way, just keep going!! Alls I can say is WoW! You go girl!!!