Just an update on my mental health...

For those following this or who know me or anybody who cares to read this. 1st some background info for anybody new to me or this issue. In the last several weeks/months I have been having mood swings, irritable, had a panic attack that I thought was a heart attack. Have been seeing my pcp and we tried Xanax but I was afraid to get hooked so did not take the recommended amount. Things got worse. Then on Memorial day Jacob (my 5 year old son) broke both bones in this lower left arm. Complete breaks not hairline fractures. Went back to pcp, changed to Klonopin- really working but I am sleepy alot and having a hard time focusing at work. Feel like since I am not working up to standards that I will get fired - totally irrational since I have been there almost 15 years and am not even on written warning. Well Monday night I came home after a pretty crappy day at work and our electricity had been turned off (money troubles also but that is another subject). I just kind of lost it and Larry - my wonderful husband called the pcd and strongly recommeded he take me out of work for a little while.I called my EAP program thru work and got some counsler names and had my 1st appointment Thursday night since he had a cancelation. I won't see him again until the 12th of July since he has nothing next week and I will be in Colorado the week of the 2nd thru the 9th. But he has recommended more sleep, more water , more exercise and more relaxation to get me started. I am to time any more panic attacks and what happens before , during , and after and also bring him a list of my meds. I think that working with him is really going to help. Jacob's arm is getting better and we got him a great product that keeps the cast completely dry even with swimming and going to the beach. It has a vacumn seal so it is uncomfortable at 1st but he is used to it now- he can wear it 40 minutes at a time then release for a few minutes and pump the air back out. It is saving summer for sure. Anyway, keep us in your prayers - we sure need them and I will update when I can. Oh also saw my surgeon on Wednesday and have a consult for plastics on August 22nd!!! Yipee !!!! If I can just get my tummy done so I don't walk like a drunk person and have this irritation in my belly button and under my tummy, it will really help. The legs, arms and fried eggs will more than likely have to wait but I will do what I can. Terri

Hello Terri I send you lots of prayers and hugs for YOU. I'm glad you have been able to talk to someone and get some guidance and help. Take care of YOU !! Do you think you are going to the OH event in Ft Lauderdale? I was wondering since I'm going and would love to met you in person. Hugs, Priscilla

Priscilla, No I won't be able to make FT Lauderdale. Too close to my Colorado trip and cant afford it. Thanks for the prayers. Terri

Terri--I am so sad that you are struggling so much right now. The stress you have been under sounds daunting. I'm really happy to see you have taken the step of seeing someone to help. Hey that thing you got for Jacob's arm sounds awesome. I broke my arm when I was a kid durning the summer and it was miserable. Colorada--are you going on vacation? Did you know that Jeanne is in Colorado Springs area? Maybe you can look her up and get together--of course Colorado is a pretty big state you could be going anywhere. I really really hope things get better for you soon. I had a friend who had panic attacks and she found that prozac helped her. Take care and good luck to you.

Lynda, The thing for Jacob is saving summer. I know I will be in Boulder will my older brother but I believe my younger brother is in Colorago Sprngs. Not sure - talk to older brother much more. It is a vacation. Joel has always wanted me to come and so I Finally am. Jut me- no hubby or kids- I can't wait. My doctor currently has me on Wellbutrin and the Klophin and it is helping as is the leave from work I took startling last Tuesday. Did Jeannie move there? Terri

Terri, it was good to see you posted even though the information wasn't what I had hoped to hear. I'm worried about you, my friend, but you're taking the right steps by talking to a professional. Been there, done that, loved it, really helped. And finding Jacob the "keep dry" gizmo was truly a blessing. I broke my arm just a few years ago and it was summer time so I can relate to the poor little one and the trama of a summertime cast. Its TERRIBLE. Of course, I was too dang big at the time to find a bathing suit so I didn't have the "want to go swimming" syndrome. I do hope he heals just fine and all goes well. Colorado....good for you. I've been once on business. Ft. Collins, Loveland, Colorado Springs and zipped over to Wyoming just to say I'd been there. Have a wonderful, safe trip and get in some R&R. Going for plastics. Oh boy, Oh boy. Barbara is looking for somebody to do plastics so let me know who you're going to so I can pass that information on. I can't wait to see what you find out. You've been thru such tramatic surgeries already....opened up and then nothing was done, had to do it all again.....hopefully plastics won't be bad. But the anticipation of the "flap" being gone is certainly an exciting aspect. Keep me posted. Alright, friend, let me hear from you. Prayers coming your way. Know that you are cared about and you are going to be fine. Its all in God's time, not ours. P.S. - How's mom? La Wanda 308-248-200

La Wanda, Hopefully the cast comes off on the 14th of July- just in time for his birthday on the 29 and also before school starts August 7th. I want him to get used to not having the cast before he goes to school. Poor little guy- he was retained in kindergarden and keeps talking about 1st grade and it breaks my heart to know that he can't. I was planning to help him back anyway but it sucks not to have the choice. Mom is recovering- this last hernia surgery is causing more pain than the others but they think that is because of the mesh they had to put in this time. Thanks for asking and thanks for the prayers. Terri

Terri - thanks for sharing your story - I know it is painful. It was a bit harder for me to detect because I'm single and it wasn't noticable to others. My dilemma materialized in bulimia but thankfully I also sought help and am doing better. Keep taking the necessary medication and counseling sessions til you know you have control of your life again. Prayers go out to you and the family. I know that Jacob will recover - I got a broken wrisk when I was 8 and he'll be fine. Good luck on your plastics consult. I really wish I could even go to a consult. I would LOVE to do my arms first and then remake myself....but I don't have any significant skin problems and don't have the $$$ to pay for any plastics. Keep me posted on your situation. God bless.

Ruth, I know all about the MONEY issue. Hard to even pay the bills right now much less pay for perky boobies. The only thing they may cover is the tummy so we will wait and see. Glad you are feeling better! Terri

Terrie, Hey lady! I am so sorry that you are going thorugh so much right now. I didn't know you were having problems. I sent you an email last night and now I feel horrible for burdening you with all of woes. Anyway just know that He still answers prayers and that you will definitely be in mine! Call me anytime you need to talk. I think you have my number. I really mean that! Kathy