I have my date.

I have been scheduled for December 4th. Honestly, now that is is for real, I am not sure whether to throw up from anxiety, or be thrilled? What took so long to get to this point in my life; now it's right in front of me. I have never had surgery before. Never broke a bone. I can't be the only one scared to death? I was so excited to do this, but once they asked me would you like to go on the 3rd or the 4th, I was thinking......"Oh ****!"

Being afraid is totally normal.  Personally I'd go with the 3rd to allow me more time to recover before Christmas.

All the best for a speedy recovery!! 

Thanks Huneypie. Feeling a little less anxious today. Now that I have had time to calm down, I was thinking the same thing!

You are very NORMAL in feeling what your feeling. You will know that when you have been on here longer and read it a few times a week for yourself. I myself auctually took anti anxiety medicine a few times for it. "Ativan". I would shake and start crying. I had wanted to have this surgery for probably about fifteen years, you would think I would be elated, but as that date got closer I just freaked out. Really what it shows is, is that you have done your research and you know how serious of a surgery it is.... Try and relax call you pcp if you have to to get some medicine. Know your normal, stay positive, and soon it will be over, and you will be starting your new life...GOODLUCK!

Thanks Dustycroy. I may just need to take your advice. You know, this website (which I thought was silly when my Nurse told me to sign up awhile ago) may just be a great idea! I feel better just typing it out and seeing an honest, deep personal admission like this from a total stranger. Thanks again!

I was scared. Luckily I felt committed and didn't want to show my family how worried I was. They probably figured it out since I made sure they had a copy of my will.  Sooner the better. You will probably be home for the weekend. 

Have a totally boring operation and heal fast.

Thanks PeatA. My wife and I are actually having the same surgery a few weeks apart. She is cool as a cucumber, and can't wait. Me on the other hand, it's like waiting in line for hours to ride a ride so excited to go on the ride, only to have the car start to move and having an anxiety attack. I guess I just grab what I can grab, and keep my eyes closed down the first hill. Hopefully when I am done, I will be like "awesome!"

I feel the same way you do. I'm scheduled for Dec 16th, and the reality of having surgery did not hit me until I got that phone call to schedule!  Somehow it became REAL and scared the crap out of me.  A few days have gone by since I scheduled and I'm calmed down but still scared, nervous, but very excited and anxious to get it done!  These feelings are normal and expected. You will do great :-)

BReyes1961, I must say, as time has passed since my phone call and a date, I feel better now. Before I had a date, this was just something I had just seriously considered, and had researched for years. To say I was to do it with a date was very scary. I start the pre diet tomorrow, and I am ready. I am just trying to surround myself with as much positive as I can. I thank you all for your responses. Happy thoughts, and exciting days ahead. When I get below 210 lbs, I am jumping out of an airplane with my sister! Now that is something to be scared about!!!