Good God, what a ride these past few months have been...... I need a break!

So besides the horrible months of chronic diarrhea and bed accidents that were humiliating and humbling, not to mention scary, my 84 year old father landing in the hospital for over 2 months with COPD and Pneumonia and BP over 208/105 that they could not get down for days.... After the 2 months, he just got transferred to a rehabilitation center/Long term care facility and was told he should not be alone which meant to NOT move back home. He is permanently on an oxygen tank and needs continuous care. That being said, he will probably be staying in the facility he is now in till the end. He is not happy, he is mad, angry, scared and taking it out on me. It has been so difficult to stay calm, loving and kind when he is so mean and nasty. I lost my cool last week and cussed him out and walked out on him.... I did not feel good about doing that, but i couldn't take it. Today was his birthday and i took him some treats and goodies to make him feel better. My mother lives with me and she is declining slowly too and been difficult. I am an only child with no brothers, sisters or extended family, so it has been rough.

To top it off, my only first cousin who i loved so much just died from a long bout of cancer that finally spread throughout her entire body and took her life a week ago. she was my age and had my exaxat same name. The only difference was she was blond, me brunette. so its been a really rough few months and I am truly hoping for a reprieve! My food has been a bit sloppy as when it is the holidays it is so hard to not eat candy and all the comfort food that is CONSTANTLY around DAILY!!!!!!!! Ugh!

However, I walk my beautiful dog Zoie every day and that always makes me feel good and happy! Just thought I would check in with you all on ALL LEVELS!  This December I will be 3 years out from my DS and 20 lbs from goal weight. I truly am looking forward in getting there and will not give up!

 

Wow!  You have had more than enough.  I hope things calm down a bit!

Thanks Patty, I know they will calm down eventually but it is just my turn i guess..... :-)

You are an amazing women, Shireen, and you are in my thoughts and prayers.  ((((Shireen))))

You may not realize it but every time you post a picture of you and Zoie I smile and send you cyber hugs for saving her and loving her.  I think your posts about her have totally turned my head around about the breed. 

--gina

Gina, I love and adore you and always will. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for saying what you did about my Zoie! My daughter reduced a pit bull too and she is also just as sweet as Zoie, I am telling you they are/can be the BEST dogs in the world to you. It really is the owner and how they raised them. there is an article ( i will try and find it for you) that states how chiwawa and shepherds are much more aggressive than most dogs.

 

You are MY ROCK and hero here on OH. I hug you!

You are so strong, and thank goodness you are for all that has been put on your shoulders. 

Valerie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Shireen, I don't know what to say other the WOW! You have had some incredibly rough challenges and I hope you are over the worst of them. I admire your strength and perserverance. Your parents are extremely lucky to have you to look out for them.

I hope you get the break you so much deserve!

You're in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

SH

SH,

 

Thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xo

Praying for you.