1st Surgiversary/1 year post-op! Photo heavy
OMG no way! I had my surgery on 12/19/11. It went by so fast! 110lbs down!
I am overwhelmed with emotions. This is reality, this happened, this is my life now, this was so fast! First and formost I want to thank the amazing men and women on this site for the support and the guidance you have given me for the past 2 years, especially when I went through dire times with my complications after surgery. I wish I could repay you all 10x over. I love our mix of people here, we are like a big old disfuctional family, which I have IRL, so it feels normal lol
I was 25 when I decided I needed surgery. I was 26 when I got the DS and now I am 27. This DS has given me so much! It gave me life! What a wonderful tool! This DS is a powerful tool and it can be dangerous if you neglect your needs. I knew this going in and had to do some real soul searching because I knew deep down I neglected myself more than I liked to admit. Before surgery I made a promise to myself to take care of myself regardless. This is a lot harder than I thought and wasn't very easy. I have mentally kicked my ass several times for neglect of myself, nothing to hurt me in the long run, but enough to tell myself not to make it a habit. Every day DS stuff is easier and I get my requirements in with no problem and my trips/vacations are becomeing easier to handle. I still sometimes drop the ball on trips and I am really trying to get better at it. Planning ahead is key :)
My life has changed! People around me treat me so much differently, in good and bad ways. My immediate family treats me the same but some family members (women) refuse to ackowledge I lost anything and act a bit snide towards me. Jealous much?! sheesh! Strangers treat me better. My co-workers ask how I do it and I reply 'diligence, high protein low carb, and tracking'. I do not let anyone know about my surgery because they judge. I don't mind reaching out to the right people but...I refuse to put myself out there for ridicule because they are to lazy to understand. I just want them to treat me normal, it's what I deserve as a person. I have had some ask if I had gastric bypass or the lap band. lol I swear that is the only 2 WLS people know about. When asked if I recieved these I just tell them I would never mutilate my body with those procedures. Which is true :) I would never undergo the band or RNY, EVER! People don't understand but this surgery is NOT the easy way out. This path is hard and it demands so much of your time! The DS can take away your life as well as give you a new life. It just depends how you use your tool. Makes me so angry that people should judge you for having WLS. I even had a co-worker come up to me and go on and on about how people mutilate their bodies with WLS. I of course politely disagreed but she didn't know she was bad mouthing me straight to my face. I keep this to myself for a reason.
Another thing that makes me angry is my boob size! Yes, you heard me right! I didn't lose any cup sizes for 100lbs then on the last 10lbs I lose a cup size!? I just baught $150 dollars in bras because I was positive I would not drop a cup size in the last 10lbs...guess what ... my body is an asshole! I am happy about being a D cup now because I can wear cuter bra's :) but I was pissed that all that money was wasted! UGGG! So take my advice...don't buy ANYTHING worth a lot of money until you know for sure you are done loseing.
My body is the lowest its ever been in my adult years. I have no idea how to handle it but I love it! I usually shop in juniors or teen section because I like the more youthful look, not childish just youthful, I mean jeesh I am only 27! I have got down to a size 7/8 jean which is a huge deal for me because that was the size I was in highschool when I was a lean mean athlete. When I went into Cold Water Creek adult womens store, very nice stuff...super spendy. I was in there and was shopping the 40% off and .... I had to drop my size to a 4!!!! WHAT?! They have to run big is all I am thinking because my body is to curvy for a 4. Anyway it was a complete shocker. I think the lowest that my body would allow me would be a size 6... and thats pushing it. I look lovely in an 7/8! A lot of people shake their heads and don't believe I am the weight I am or the size I am. They say ... 'NO WAY, you have to weigh less!' or 'You only wear an 8...I swear you were a 4.' So it just proves that jean size and weight are not the biggest factor in what your body decides is healthy. Right now my stats are 39bust 28waist 39hips. The only goal I have now is to slim up my tummy more, I would like to see 26 without plastics. It will be hard to do when I have slouchy tummy:( but I am deteremined! After children I plan to do a tummy tuck and I am confident I can get back down to a 26 waist like I used to have. My waist is very very slim besides the flab that is scarred and hanging :(
I honeslty don't know where my body is going to land...if I didn't lose anymore weight I would be completely happy. I had my very first stall when I hit 151, yep only 1 lb above my goal... OF COURSE! lol I stalled at 151 for 3 weeks before dropping to 148 this week.I am not the norm when it comes to weightloss. I didn't have a 3 week stall or any stall untill 151 and I also lose more when I have my period, yea weird. I am still on average losing 1-2lbs a week. This kinda scares me because I don't want to drop to low. My bones are literally sticking out. I have boney knees, elbows, wrists, hips, shoulder blades and collar bones. You can even feel my second calf bone... you know the one that is more on the side of your leg. If I lose another 10lbs I might look sickly...or I might not but it really does scare me. It also doesn't help that people are telling me I look 'too' skinny. Granted they don't know my body or where I need to be but it is starting to get a bit under my skin. *brushing it off*
NSV's
weigh less than husband
can fit into my 19 year old sisters clothes (tight but its doable lol)
my highschool swimsuit is a bit baggy on me
i had a man almost rear end a car because he was checking me out hahaha
no longer have diabetes
my pcos symptoms have drasticly dropped
my thyroid is still an asshole but is being at least nicer these days
had my first bull elk kill
had my first buck kill
had my first walleye catch
i no longer use a cpap machine
i no longer take metformin
was able to help with snow removal this year
dropped a cup size, to a D, i can now experience a larger variety of bras
i dont need shapewear only control panties for the flouncy lower abdomen
my endurance is fab!
i can fit cute boots because my calves are tiny
my skin snapped back really well
my hair is thinner but you can't tell i lost any hair (it is also super healthy)
i have my good skin back, hardly ever get a blemish
my labs are looking great
i went white water rafting (in a swimsuit)
went to an underground caverns and actually was able to hike, going up and down inside the caverns also up the mtn (lewis & clark caverns)
Non-NSV's
my ass is flat as a pancake and is droopy-crease doesn't look normal :(
my boobs are no longer full and perky... but at least great push up's excist and full coverage bras
i can't sit in hard seats very long... gosh dang that hurts my ass, i need padding
my saggy lower abdomen, but can be hidden by good control panties
stretch marks! i wish i had a magic wand... until then it looks like i was mauled by a bear
my upper inner thighs are bit mushy blah (at least they don't sag)
my upper arms are slightly wobbly
protein shakes and vits... all the f-ing time ! gah!
my sex drive is not dead but its not roaring either...could be the depo shot
i can poo like a monster now, i really don't know how my body could hold that much poo
i also can kill with a fart if i eat really bad things WATCH OUT!
i lost a lot of hair, you can't tell but i am already getting in new growth all over
cold all the time! (combination of lower body fat and my thyroid)
Sorry this is long but to be honest it is a lot shorter than what I have brewing up in my head. I hope you all enjoy and I hope I can inspire:)
pre-op photos 259
wedding photo with dad many years before about 220
me at 148 also had to add photo bomb with dog of course
photo's along the way:) a very happy journey
HW 259 SW 256 CW 141 GW 150
on 12/16/12 3:19 am
Danni,
I had tears in my eyes while reading this. Tears of joy for you! You are inspiring! This one change at your age will make all the difference in the world. Your inspiring writing may lead you on another journey!!! 
You have the ability to make people smile when you write with your wit! That is great!
The thing that makes your story great. You have an ability to analyze "your" life & situation. You have the self confidence to make the "right" decision for you! That is wonderful at your age!
Congratulations!
PS - I know you are going to be an Amazing Mother!!!
Happy surgiversary, Danni! 
--gina
5'1" -- HW 195/SW 187/GW 115 July 08/CW 121 Dec 2012
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DS on Aug 9, 2007 with Dr. Hazem Elariny
on 12/16/12 10:23 am - OR
Congrats Danni on your surgiversary! You are a cute as a button...and I personally would kill to have an ass like yours, hell @ 27 I would have killed to have an ass like that
What a whirlwind year you had -- Ah to be young, thin, in love with the world at your feet and a zest for life. You go girl!
Revision with Dr John Rabkin 4/26/12
Highest Weight 297, Revision Weight 254, Current Weight 130
hehehe i am glad you liked my ass:) i wore those jeans because they do make my butt a little better. Truck jeans made in the usa:) when i am in my undies my poor bum droops below my panties hahaha i have to seriously hit the gym for some booty TLC! lol
life after the ds is amazing, i get teary eyed just thinking about it. i am healthy and i want to do so many things! i have a list that is so long and i swear i will do it all!
HW 259 SW 256 CW 141 GW 150
