Trying hard to beat the two week freak
DS on 04/26/12
Oh my gosh. SO much is changing in my life besides the life changing surgery I am about to have in less than two weeks. I know it is normal to freak out a bit but it just hit me in a wave of anxiety. I might cry or barf or hyperventilate. I just want to get under my big fluffy blanket and hide for awhile. I can't even figure out what is bothering me.
Do what you gotta do. Try to stay busy. If it gets too bad, you wouldn't be the first to ask a doc for anti-anxiety meds to help you through.
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DS on 04/26/12
Lol. Yeah, I have a xanax left over from when I was freaking out about the Arterial Blood Gas...it's looking pretty good right about now.
DS on 03/12/12
DS on 04/26/12
Thanks, guys. I took the xanax and slept for a good 12 hours and woke up much less stressed. I am a massage therapist and taught it for 4 years. One reason I am stressed is because I literally just ended that job on Friday. I still work at the chiropractor three days a week but I think that big change is added stress. I am taking deep breaths and trying to care for myself in non food ways. IE bubble baths, gardening, swimming. Things I enjoy. I know it is normal to freak out about the surgery but I know it is the right thing to do. Thanks for the support!!!
I was so nervous that I couldn't think straight. It was hard to read posts even. I spent my two weeks going thru the OH before and after pictures. It calmed me a lot to know that all of those people had braved the surgery before me. I saw how happy they looked in their after shots also. I also went on a fantasy shopping trip (in my head only) for outfits I would wear when I lost weight. I chose items that were completely different than the fat clothes I wore my whole life.
Lastly I got everything ready for post op life. Vites, schedules, recliner, notepad, packed for hospital, caught up on paperwork at home, cleaned the house, blew up balloons to help with post surgery breathing, walked, etc. Lots to do to keep your mind off the actual surgery itself.
Good luck!
Cheers,
Cathy
Lastly I got everything ready for post op life. Vites, schedules, recliner, notepad, packed for hospital, caught up on paperwork at home, cleaned the house, blew up balloons to help with post surgery breathing, walked, etc. Lots to do to keep your mind off the actual surgery itself.
Good luck!
Cheers,
Cathy
DS on 04/26/12
Thanks for making me feel normal, everyone!! Prayers for those who are going in around the same time as me!