Humiliation just solidified my decision

If I was ever questioning my decision to move forward with the DS, I won't again.  I am on vacation and my kids wanted to go to Cedar Point.  I am an adrenaline junkie so they didn't have to ask me twice.  I'm in line for the best ride ever, I think it's called the Dragster or something like that, and I'm nervous but not about the ride.  I'm not sure I'll fit in the seat.  I am in line for literally 45 minutes and that's all I can think of.  I get to the front of the line and in the seat - seatbelt won't click.  I'm about to get up and gracefully exit when the attendant comes over, pushes my fat belly up so that it's almost wrapped over my head and makes a grunting noise as he clicks the belt.  He then closes the lap bar on so tight, I can barely breathe.  And, here's the best part, mutters something about fat people under his breath as he walks away.  I'm practically in tears as we're waiting to "take off" for the coaster.  I didn't go on any other rides for the next two days because I was terrified of repeating that experience. 

Never again.

Then I come back and my Aunt sends me this longevity calculator from her insurance company.  I fill it out and it says I should live 84 years - not bad.  I fill it out again and change only my weight and my cholesterol (adjusted both to normal) and now I'm living 98 years.  That hit me hard.  By doing nothing, I could potentially be robbing my kids and grandkids (someday!) of time with their Mom/Nana.  I almost feel selfish NOT having the surgery now. 

Still terrified, but more determined than ever.  In month one of 6 month diet which is stupid because I'm already banded, but whatever.  I'll do whatever it takes to get this done.  

Okay, I'm off my soapbox.  I just needed to vent out the humiliation I was feeling.  So embarrassing.... 

PS - that ride, despite the jerk who clicked me in, was AWESOME

OMG!! I am so sorry that this happened to you... I know exactly how you feel... I did not fit on a ride at 6 Flags and I was mortified... I dont have any words of wisdom just to let you know that you are not alone...

Good Luck with your Journey!!

I am SO sorry that happened to you.  But am glad that you are now firm in your decision to move forward.  Having the DS is NOT selfi**** is doing what you NEED to do for your health and the health of your family.  You can't take care of the ones you love if you aren't healthy or around to do so.

I would also be all UP in that jackasses **** about treating you like that...probably NOT to his face b/c I would be humiliated like you.  But I WOULD be calling the main office and lodging a complaint about it.  That is BULL****

Now that you are firm in your decision - start reading, reading, reading!  And don't allow any "helpful" comments or attempts to dissuade you get you down.  My thinking pre-op was that if it wasn't a helpful or supportive comment, it didn't get "air time' with me, period.  I would just say it wasn't open for discussion and leave it at that.  If that didn't work I would remove myself from said conversation.

I'm sorry to hear that someone could be so thoughtless. I had a friend that said that happened to her but that she was asked to exit in a very loud manor because of her weight. Only you can make the choice to push forward I was scared but knew that I would make it and so far so good! Wish you the best of luck!

 I think a lot of us have had similar experiences.  I know I have used having to stay back with my youngest and not get in line for rides so I wouldn't have to face that embarassment ever again.  It happened to me last summer at Cedar Point.  I decided to go on a mini roller coaster ride there, thinking that the belt would fit over both my 4-year-old and me.  WELL...I get on the ride and realized that we each had our own belts and of course it wasn't even close.  An attendant did his best.  I thought I was going to die.  Everyone else in our party went on.  That was the last straw for me too and I started researching revisions.  Best of luck to you!!!

Sandy

I'm really sorry but I had a moment like that. It was putting on my hospital gown that did not cover my white ass and had to work into the operating room like that. Welp, I knew then that I was doing the right thing!!! Good luck.

I have doen the walk of shame and I know just how much any kind of event like this hurts and stings, its like it puts a perminut mark on your memory for it. I had to walk off while my husband road. BUT let me tell you on my almost 1 yr srgyaniv I DID ride that roller coaster and I had PLENTY of room, PLENTY. this is an amzing tool that has given many of us our life back. I am sorry that this happened and I hope that in one yr your showing off that you can ride any ride you want. Best of luck and keep us posted.

So sorry this happened to you. ******** are everywhere!! No one deserves that kind of treatment. He'll get his someday!!

I think most of us have had moments like this. Here's mine:


http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/DS/4026094/Never-so-ashamed-and-hurt/

I posted this a while back. My heart was breaking. Fast forward. I had my DS 10.5 months ago. I've lost 120 lbs. I eat wonderfully.Take my vites faithfully. Life is good now. I'm still 215lbs but I have guys winking at me, taking double takes, and honking their horns at me. I don't care what others think now because *I* like me now. LOVE my DS!!!


Ruby

You are going to rock your surgery!
My heart was breaking for you as I read about Cedar Point. Then I read your determination to get healthy and I thought, Wow, she's a strong woman. Then, at the very end I read your PS and I burst out laughing! You, and Kirmy from a magical land that I know is full of rainbows, give me such hope because of your humor! Thank you.

I'm so sorry my dear. I think that part of the hiring process for cedar point is to train them to be total ******** to people who are overweight in any way. The last few times I've gone, I've pretty much just stayed off the rides, but they've even made comments to my mother, who, while overweight, is nowhere near MO or in danger of not fitting in a seat. Just think about the next time you'll go to Cedar Point and how amazing it will be to be able to fit in every ride.... that's one of the things I'm looking forward to the most. I actually think next summer my husband and I will leave our (then) 2 year old daughter with her grandparents for a couple days and spend at least 2 days there, so I can ride Every. Single. Ride. There. (Including the water park, as I've always been way too much of a chicken **** to put on a bathing suit in front of that many people). Ohhh, now I'm getting excited for next summer. Wanna meet us there?