my weigh in

i jumped on the scale today.....i am 8 lbs up....hahhahaha.......i still must be retaining the fluids from the hospital and the meds i guess have a hand in this.....my appetite has been lousy so i know it is water weight.....but i feel like i am so much lighter....this hernia surgery has made me see myself for what i really am.....i have been missing that great guy...social butterfly i am...........lol but today i saw it...i thought 8 lbs...................no big deal i know it is not from eating....and at that moment the number did not matter....that is what success is all about...i think i have arrived at that place we all are striving for...we look everywhere and it is right inside us...it is the change in us that happens on this journey that matters.....satisfaction will never be in that number....i have preached it and tryed to live by since day one and it is so emotionally hard at times not to dicate the progress with the scale number...it is a battle that took 12 months to win..their is hope !!! i know we all fight that demon....i know the fights and the highs and lows of looking at that number....now i am sure it is not in that number,,,it never was...believe in the changes in you.....find them, see them and cherish your success in them.....it is really in them....i am calling you from there right now.......awesome place to be and 8 lbs up.....who would have thought...................big smile