Ok, now I have done something really stupid!

Yes Elissa. They are heroes. God bless them all and their loved ones. Thanks for responding to my post. Big Hugs, Rosa

Rosa, I didn't go to this page until after surgery but I remember reading one profile for 4 hours straight while crying and still crying for 2 days afterwards. Most of this people died putting up a good fight. They were fighting something they beleived in and wanted so bad. Being scared is normal. I can honestly say I was alot more scared not to have the surgery then I was to have it. I was slowly killing myself anyway. If I die tomorrow I feel I had a chance to experience a better life before I went. Thanks to having surgery. Go back again and write down why you want to have this surgery. This will help you. The day of surgery you will be both scared and happy. Welcome to the roller coaster. Life is just beginning. You know this is your decision and your decision alone. It is a big step to take and only you can take it!!! Remember you are not in this alone . We are always here to listen to you so vent all you want. That is what we are here for. I am only a phone call away. See you lighter. Joanne

Hi Joanne, I have made my list and it is in my profile page. It really helped to think about how my life will be if I continue on this self-destructive path I am on. This is my second chance at life. I have been blessed with such wonderful friends and family. My life is great, and sometimes I wonder if I deserve to ask for more when there are so many people so much worse off than I. But you know what? I do deserve to be healthy and live a long life. God has blessed me so much. Not that there have not been very difficult times in my life, but somehow I have survived. I have my loved ones and God to thank for that. I have to remind myself that God doesn't ration blessings. It's not like I have used up my allotment and there are no more left for me. It's ok to want to be healthy and free. Thank you, my friend, for always being there for me. Even though we don't know each other very well, you are always there to lend a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on. Thank you so very much! Big Hugs, Rosa

Rosa, That is what we are here for. You are always welcome to cry , shout or just vent. We take turns in this WLS Family. Hope all goes well for you. You deserve the best and God has many blessings in store for you yet. You have only just begun!!!! See you lighter. Joanne