So tired of being Fat!!!

I don't know why my mood has suddenly switched today, but it has. Maybe pms...who knows. Anyway, I was getting ready to make a run to the post office today and I was getting ready in the bathroom and I was just so disgusted with myself. My hair was looking greasy ( I just washed it last night), my face is all broken out like a teenager, my shirt is stretched out and is making me look bigger than I am and I top of all of this I am just FAT. I am so tired of looking in the mirror and trying to suck in even to fool myself. I am tired of having no energy and having to physically force myself to do anything. Days like today remind me of why I am having this surgery in the first place. I just don't want to be big anymore!!!! Thanks for letting me vent...I sure hope Barix will call soon and give me a date. They said to contact them if I didn't hear anything in 2 weeks. It has been 1 week and 1 day..lol..it sure is hard to wait. Robyn

Robyn, I know exactly how you're feeling. I feel that way everyday when I wake up and have to keep wearing 1 of the 7 outfits that fit me to come to work. I have a new saying now, if it is the Orange dress it must be Monday. I won't be having my surgery until April 06 because of vacation time here at work. I am excited about the surgery and reading everything I can about it. Right now I am reading Carnie Wilson's I'm Still Hungery. It is an awesome book, and she is a riot. Good luck with everything and just remember you are not alone when you feel like that. Deanna

Robyn Hang in there, hon. We've all had those days. Don't be too discouraged. Here's wishing you hear something soon. Dianne

Hang in there. You'll get that phone call soon. In the mean time, try to occupy yourself with getting as healthy as possible before your surgery. Once you get that call, it's the rollercoaster ride of your life. You think you're emotional now, just wait! You'll have every emotion known to mankind at least twice a day untill you finally step into that operating room. Afterwards you'll have to contend with the hormones. As you burn your excess fat, the hormones stored in it are released. You'll find yourself either laughing or crying for no reason until your body adjusts. You just keep on venting here. Dee

Robyn, Hang in there, you are getting ready for a whole new journey. I am just over one month after surgery. I know the feeling you are going through(not the pms) and it is not fun. I think the anticipation of the surgery makes us realize just how out of control we are. My wife and I are facing the post-op challenges everyday. The question I keep asking myself is why did I not do this sooner? Yes, the insurance wait, the scheduling wait, the wait wait!, will be worth it. You will see yourself as a different person real soon. Are you and your family coming to the picnic? It is good to be around people going through the same thing you are. Good luck, hang in there! Kevin and Lisa

I would like to come to the picnic but I am going to have family in from out of town, so I will have to see what they will be doing first since they are only here for a short time. My husband will be at the dover down races but if I can get free time I could come and bring my daughter. I am not sure if you can help me with this or not, but I need to know exactly where the picnic is so I can do Mapquest and figure out driving directions. Robyn P.S. Thanks for all of your replies everyone. It does help to know that I am not alone.

Hi Robyn, It's almost been a year since my surgery, but to hear what you are going through seems like yesterday. Hang in there, it will happen for you and what you are going through right now will make you much stronger and determined when your surgery day comes. Keep coming to this board for support, we will get you through!!!! Hang in there Dana