I feel like it's square one again (long)

Ya'll may recall a previous post I made about my thyroid medication and generic vs brand. On January 30th I went back to brand. I missed work yesterday and called out again today and made an appointment with my doctor. This fluid is driving me crazy. I'm always tired, I can't remember a darn thing. blah blah blah. I felt like a whiner when I walked in her door. I told her that I just don't get it. I've been eating less. I've been eating right. I've been excercising. I am in the process of quitting smoking (1 week today). Yet the scales laugh at me. The fluid fluxuation is huge. That I weighed at PMRI one night at class and the very next morning on the same scale I was 4 lbs less. That I was going to fail this class because of weight gain instead of weight loss and I couldn't put my finger on any of it unless it's my thyroid. She told me that my face was smaller and that from the waist up from what she could tell I was smaller so not to give up what I am doing. She then asked about lab work and I told her I had it done 2 weeks ago. So she called the lab and told them to fax it over. When she walked back in the office she said well, it's no wonder you are not feeling well. Your TSH is greater than 100. Basically, you are getting nothing at all. I asked what it should be. She said oh, much lower. Much much lower. So I told her I had moved to generic sometime last year and on the 30th of last month I moved back to brand. She said if that is the case then I am not going to increase your levels. We will have them checked again in 6 weeks. I said no problem. My surgery is in 6 weeks... in fact they just pushed my date out a week so it's 6 weeks from today and they'll do all the bloodwork then. And she said. No. You will not be having major surgery with these levels. It will put you at risk for a heart attack. I said what number are we looking at to have surgery? She said less than 10. And I'm greater than 100? She said yes. And with it that out of whack it will take a couple of months for things to start to even out. That's where I got speechless. I guess tomorrow I'll call Dr. Peter's office and talk to them about it. Yup, I feel like I'm back at square one. Gigee

Hi Gigee, don't give up hope. Maybe for some reason your body needs more time to adjust before surgery, or maybe you are not ready. I know it is hard to have a date then it may move. But leave everything in GOD's hands and it will all work out. I will keep you in my prayers. Christie 2 weeks post-op -27.4 lbs.

Thank you for the prayers Christie. My main concern right now is feeling better. I'm so tired that if I could spend the next week in bed I'd do it! And tonight is my last class at PMRI. I have no idea what will be said about me not meeting the weightloss goal. In fact, I've had a weight gain. I'll know shortly! Gigee

Hi Gigee, My heart goes out to you. I am pre op and just going for my EGD tomorrow. I am still at the beginning of the line. When I first decided to have surgery, I was planning to go with the Barix Clinic in Penn. I was denied because I could not go out of state. Then, I went through Dr Miller in Seaford. 6 days after my consultation they decided not to do the surgery anymore. Now I am with CHRIAS. I am happy that I am finally starting somewhere. Keep your head up. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best. You seem to have a wonderful personality and I would use that to get you through this. Smiles!! Julie pre-op

Julie, I have to tell you, I said a big ol prayer for those who were in the process with Dr. Miller when I heard they decided not to do the surgery anymore. I am glad you found CHRIAS and the process has started for you. It's a learning experience and well worth the time and energy. I am back from my final class and as suspected did not pass because of the weight thing. They were understanding and said not to worry, once my thyroid levels start getting better, as long as I am keeping up what I am doing I should meet the goal just fine. For now, I'm just going to focus on this thyroid mess. It's time to start feeling better! Best wishes to you! Gigee

Hi there, I am a little confused as to who "she" is? A doctor, nurse practitioner, dietician? At any rate, I would think you need to call Dr. Peter's office ASAP and your regular family doctor needs to be involved in getting this straightened out. I wonder if they could get you in to see an endocrinologist any time soon as thyroid is part of what they deal with. I would hate for your surgery to have to be rescheduled. Can't they try to get this straightened out now, rather than later Let us know how it all turns out and I will be thinking good thoughts for you. I would be banging down somebody's door to get this straightened out - who cares if they think you are Pink

Pink, She is my doctor.. my regular family doctor so I am in good hands. I tried contacting Dr. Peter's office after my visit with her but they were already gone for the day so I will contact them in the morning. Getting these levels straight just takes some time so I anticipate being removed from the surgery books until these levels start to head in the right direction. Keep those good thoughts a coming! I'm embracing those right now! And Thank You ! Gigee

Hey Gigee, keep your spirits up. We all seem to go through a lot of anxiety pre-surgery, but it will happen. Everything happens for a reason. One week out from the cigarettes -- -- HOORAY, HOORAY, HOORAY!!! Let yourself feel good about that and look at all of your successes. You have made a decision to change your life and you will do just that. Get help from your doctors and trust in them Remember, I have everything crossed for you and this human (low carb) pretzel is starting to cramp. I add an extra prayer for you "Twisted" Dwight

OH my twisted friend *hugs* to you. I can always count on you for encouragment. Thank you! I REALLY wanted a cigarette when I left my doctor's office today.. LEMME TELL YOU! whew. But I'm too far into that part of my journey to turn back now. Now, with an adjusted focus. Thyroid first. Surgery second. Diet, excercise and no-smoking to continue as is. But still, I'm a bit bummed. That will change. Usually takes me about 24 hours to mentally gear up for something. Tomorrow is a new day! Thank you! Gigee

My darling angelette! I am so sorry to hear of this. I wasn't on the boards last night and just came on today (I'm supposed to be painting....yeah, still not done!). Anyway, for now, I agree with Dwight. Kudos on the not smoking...ONE WEEK! WOO HOO! Great job and congrats for foregoing one when you were feeling so down. For now...it's onward, let's get this moving with the thyroid and no, you don't want to have surgery if you are at a high risk of any problem whatsoever...I know deep down you realize that, it'll just take your brain and heart a few days to catch up. Know that for some reason, this push back is a good thing. Take care, keep your chin up and call me if you want/need to talk. Take care, Valerie