Old Social habits are hard to break

Okay, Okay...I need ya'll to set me straight here... I went to a social event this evening. I had a nice time..but I realized more about myself...that I have to be careful not to resume old habits..and no..its not the eating kind(even though the event was centered around food..you would be very proud of me!). But, I noticed..I sat in the back...out of view...wanting to blend in more...its funny, because I'm an outgoing person..but I realized tonight..that I have always protected myself...not to gather too much attention..and especially to my size. But, I did find myself..just trying to protect myself..from something..and I don't know what...I had a wonderful time..but this odd feeling...I guess I'm just trying to get comfortable in my skin. For once, I was not even the largest person in the room..and I wasn't even looking for a "buddy"..but, in some ways maybe the fat was my disguise..to not let myself become involved more then I needed to..and if I was disappointed..then, I had something to blame it on. Hmmm...this is a learning process...I'm doing great..but realize these little things that I did/do to protect myself. Anyone else experience this recently? If I sound scattered..I am. I don't like feeling odd like this..but I know to chalk it up to readjusting to my new weight-loss etc. I'm sure no one else saw this..but its what I was feeling inside. The old me..in the thinner body..go figure. Hmmmm....I'll have to work on this. Hugs to all, Kimberly

Wow Kim, I think you hit the nail on the head girl. I can relate to your night out. I think I'm outgoing. But when I go out I always hid too. Now, because of the WLS, I am often in the front and I'm not real comfortable with that yet. A lot of people are truely interested, some curious & some just pIain noisy. I find myself compeled to set them straight & explain "what we go through before & after WLS". After that I am a social flop and I don't like monoplizing the conversation myself for too long. I think I get tired of hearing myself talk. I went to Galveston this past weekend. To an "Elissa" Renunion". For once the conversation was about other things. Oh, the WLS did come up because I'd met these ladies last year. But after a few sentences about it, I could put it to rest. Our common bond was our name. What a hoot. Their is a Tall Ship in the Galveston Harbor named the "Elissa". OMG I was in heaven with the crab bisque & fresh seafood. I did okay on my foods. I was a little short on my protein. I walked alot. Left out my favorite crusty bread & potatoes. Out of all the things I miss, it is the bread most. I guess we are all works in progress. Kim, Have you found any support meetings to attend in Dallas? Hope there are some folks that you can meet that have a common bond. Well, I'm off to the gym. Missed it the past week. ((HUGS)) Elissa

Elissa, You are soooooo right!!! Everything you said...I hate being the center of the conversation..and get tired of hearing myself talk. I really need to get to a support group her locally. I was told of a few...I need to post on the Texas board for one close by...this is the harder part for me now..dealing with the head games. Sounds like you had a great time in Texas!!! What a neat thing..and "Elissa" reunion! I hope you can make up this way sometime! I'll take you out! Thanks for your kind words..you always know just what to say...Many, many hugs to you! Kimberly (I just got back from the gym!)