Ugh... Insomnia anyone? Anxiety?

Oh man what the heck is wrong with me... it is 1 am and I am just sitting here spinning my wheels. I feel like I can't sleep yet my eyes are burning. I have this pounding/fluttering feeling in my chest. Duh - guess I need to take a zanax - that didn't even occur to me until I started typing this. Does anyone else get that feeling of being kind of lost - like my thoughts are being pulled in 10 different directions - yet somehow they are all related to WLS. It leaves me feeling kind of down and uneasy. Which is soooo much easier to admit to feeling here on a message board then heaven forbid to anyone in person. - - - Which is the only negative to meeting all of you lovelies.... It takes away the protection that the computer screen offers... oh well. It's all about starting over right. Oh heck I'm just rambling at this point. I will tell you this. 11 am tomorrow my butt will be (fitting a little better) in a movie sea****ching LOTR - Return of the King ....sigh.... for the 2nd time What can I say it is a guilty pleasure. Here is the NEW part... I'm getting some popcorn! lol. After reading on the main boards about popcorn being okay & going down well - yadda yadda yadda... I am NOT taking Glenisoy (whatever) crispy wafer whatever.. I'll let you know how it goes~! Oh btw - I read a funny catch phrase... grouchy pouchy... generally I hate referring to my stomach as my "pouch" like I am some damn marsupial or something.. put I like that one, it's a keeper Okay well.. I still feel edgy but I'll end your misery now poor people.. you were the only ones I had to turn to at this stupid hour! lol. Love ya's

well it's 1:32am so i guess i'm in the same boat as you hahaha i can't sleep either. most times i go to bed at 3am and wake up at about 9am. i'm married and have 2 children so daytime hours are really hard for taking time for myself or god forbid thinking about life hahaha at night is when i am alone with my thoughts or a good book. i love LOTR too! i have been doing alot of deep thinking..ya know the kind were you have great fantastic thoughts and then you have the very deep depressing one too. the first 2 month after surgery were really hard because of the emotional ups and downs. life was great, but the hormones were playing wicked tricks on me. about 6 years ago i was on prozac and getting help for depression about 3 times a week for a year after i had my last child. hormones can be a real pain in the ass!! haha it has took all that was in me not to let myself go back to that dark place called depression. everything in my life is going great and i'm getting healthier each day. but........that first 2 months post-op stupid sappy tv shows would make me cry hahaha and i'm not a crier. i hope you have fun at the movies, but make sure you dont' put butter on it(i know i love the butter too). the butter is what will make you sick. good luck and get some sleep hahaha

Oh no - I am askin for extra butter lol. I figure I can only eat like what 5 pieces? Actually I don;t have any problems with butter so I'm okay there - just that it is empty calories & fat. But in such small quantities why fret. Pre op I took zoloft after a miscarraige a few years back. But I had stopped it on my own earlier this year. There have been times recently when I've wondered if I should go back on it for a while. But then I think - look - you have been through alot. I just had your body reconfigured becasue I was unable to lose weight on my own (no guilt there...) and for the past 2 months I've been eating like nothing and losing weight a a pretty rapid clip (no complaints of course). So then I think I just need to give myself a break and experience the emotions. I don't know. It isn't like I have any regrets really over the surgery itself. Without it I was slipping into that pretty dark place and that was scary. I've always been happy, outgoing, fun, I even felt sexy, & turned a few heads (even if they were just drunk guys at bars) - toot toot.. (my own horn) but increasingly over the last six or seven years I have felt more and more withdrawn because of my weight. Really, the only real regret is that I am not doing this at 22 instead of 32 when my body might have bounced back better. Well I am glad I am not the only one out here... Your kids sleep until 9?

Hey...I was up till about 1:30 myself..sorry I missed you both...maybe we should set up the chat room for late nights??? Enjoy the movie Kathy -- my son has been bugging me to take him to see it - if you are going for the 2nd time - it must be really good! Enjoy!! ((hugs)) Cj