have you ever woke up one day and say the life you are living is just not working?
that you wanted to design a new life.
new thoughts
new friends or any friends at all (since i know people but don't have friends)
new hobbies: you know what you like but want to do more in some areas and drop completely other areas and actually do them
i have to admit looking for work is depressing enough
farmville is interesting and very addicting
it has come to my attention that if i didn't log onto farmville and any computer anything would anyone notice? would anyone think to call and check on me??
i have just come through a period of time (Halloween 09 through new year 10) where only my mother called to check on me. and to deliver the news her brother died and she had a stroke. my 2 grown kids had select things to say ABOUT me but nothing else.
i would call someone if there was someone to call. if i knew the person would want to talk to me and not just answer the phone because.
i realize i present my self depressingly. my life is so so empty. i have so much and yet i am so lost. i will be the first to admit it.
i am ashamed. i prefer not to tell anyone my whiny problems since on the grand scale of life they are just that - petty.
my health has created some major situations. the latest is a gd one. i can not urinate. i have gone to the urgent clinic. got some meds. i have an upcoming appointment w an urologist. the situation is not nice.
thanks for reading.
((HUGS)) Elissa
I once read:
3Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. 5Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. 6Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
I don't know what your faith is but one thing for sure...it can't be in people. I praying that you will be comforted. If you like you can send me your phone number....I have a home based ministry and I'd love to try to connect with you.
Remember this...there is one that sticks closer than a friend. One who has given His life for you. That's where all of your expectation should be and this One will never let you down.
God bless
I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. I have found that this board is such an amazing place to voice just what you are talking about. We are here to listen and provide support - and I am happy to help in any way possible. Please feel free to email me if you want to talk -
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Please take care - and we're here for you..... <3
my blog: www.laurot95.blogspot.com
HW - 361/SW - 338/GW - ONEderland somewhere......
(loss reflects 23# loss pre-op)
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Starting weight from 8/7/09- pre op and post op!
RNY Surgery on 2/22/10- weightloss post op!