have you ever woke up one day and say the life you are living is just not working?

CeciliaM
on 1/19/10 11:49 pm - Newark, DE
have you ever woke up one day and say the life you are living is just not working?
that you wanted to design a new life.
new thoughts
new friends or any friends at all (since i know people but don't have friends)
new hobbies: you know what you like but want to do more in some areas and drop completely other areas and actually do them
i have to admit looking for work is depressing enough
farmville is interesting and very addicting

it has come to my attention that if i didn't log onto farmville and any computer anything would anyone notice?  would anyone think to call and check on me?? 

i have just come through a period of time (Halloween 09 through new year 10) where only my mother called to check on me.  and to deliver the news her brother died and she had a stroke.  my 2 grown kids had select things to say ABOUT me but nothing else.
i would call someone if there was someone to call.  if i knew the person would want to talk to me and not just answer the phone because. 

i realize i present my self depressingly.  my life is so so empty.  i have so much and yet i am so lost.  i will be the first to admit it.

i am ashamed.  i prefer not to tell anyone my whiny problems since on the grand scale of life they are just that - petty. 

my health has created some major situations.  the latest is a gd one.  i can not urinate.  i have gone to the urgent clinic.  got some meds.  i have an upcoming appointment w an urologist.  the situation is not nice. 

thanks for reading.
Elissa H
on 1/20/10 3:49 am - Wilmington, DE
Celia, email me [email protected].
((HUGS)) Elissa
altheda71
on 1/21/10 4:08 am - Bear, DE
There are people like me who care about people like you.  The world is so filled with chaos and everyone is so self-centered it seems.  You could switch up everything and still find yourself in the same place when it comes to dealing with people/friends.  True friends and people who care enough to set another person as a priority in their life are not that easy to come by for anyone...IMO. 

I once read:


 3Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. 5Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. 6Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

I don't know what your faith is but one thing for sure...it can't be in people.  I praying that you will be comforted.  If you like you can send me your phone number....I have a home based ministry and I'd love to try to connect with you.

Remember this...there is one that sticks closer than a friend.  One who has given His life for you.  That's where all of your expectation should be and this One will never let you down.

God bless

 
 

    

May God bless us in all of our endeavors.  May He forgive us for our frailties and our vanities and bless us to be prosperous in health, soul, and in life.            
Laurie S.
on 1/21/10 8:48 am
 Cecilia - 
I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time.  I have found that this board is such an amazing place to voice just what you are talking about.  We are here to listen and provide support - and I am happy to help in any way possible.  Please feel free to email me if you want to talk - 
[email protected] 

Please take care - and we're here for you.....  <3
Laurie =)
my blog: www.laurot95.blogspot.com
HW - 361/SW - 338/GW - ONEderland somewhere......
(loss reflects 23# loss pre-op)

        
Liz C.
on 1/23/10 12:47 am - DE
I am really sorry you are having such a hard time...  If you would like to email me and chat about whatever please feel free to! 
[email protected]

 
Starting weight from 8/7/09- pre op and post op!


RNY Surgery on 2/22/10- weightloss post op! 

  
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