One week to go and terrified

A week from today will be my Gastric Bypass (pending insurance approval). I'm so scared. I've been on Optifast for a week now, with another week to go and I've lost 10 pounds.

Saturday night I had a melt down.... I wanted food, real food (I didn't cheat though), my mind started racing all these negative thoughts started flowing in. I started seconding guessing my decision, so then I decided to get on the complication forums here adn absolutely tortured myself reading the horrible stores.... I was in tears and ready to cancel surgery this morning.

Since then my wife has calmed me down as well as some help from folks on OH. I'm still so scared though.  

I am a scardy cat and I freaked out when I had to go under for my wisdom teeth but I am really trying to stay positive with this!!! I think about that I've done 7 days on a liquid diet and there are only 7 to go!! You can do it! There are always going to be more and more complications if you don't have the surgery! Stay strong ans stay positive. Think about the good days ahead when you feel better about yourself inside and out. Think about looking in the mirror and being happy. It will be ok and we will be here comparing our great success stories in months to come! CHEER UP!!!

I think pretty much everyone feels as you do at one time or another.  For me, it was the day before surgery.  I woke up and decided, "Heck no, I'm not doing this!"  I called my sister (who had gastric bypass in 2000) and said I really think I'll try dieting and exercise again.  She said "So how has that worked for the past 30 years?"  I decided to go ahead with the surgery but I was petrified right up until the surgery.  Doctor Peters was great but just laughed when I said how scared I was. 

I had my surgery last November.  No problems, no complications.  Our group of doctors is very good......relax and try not to think about it.   You'll do great!

 Dr. Peters is very nice. He did my pre-surgery appointment, and answered all my questions very well. 

One concern I have now is yesterday I visited a dermatologist for a discoloration on my lower back. He did a biopsy of the spot but won't have the results for two weeks and surgery is scheduled for Monday. 

He said he was confident it was nothing and that it was no reason to postpone surgery, but I'm a little nervous. 

I'm sure you will be fine.  I was supposed to have my gastric bypass on 07/13 but had to postpone to a cervical spine surgery that was very successful.  Now I am 4 weeks out from my gastric bypass and just finished the final weight as a requirement for insurance approval.  Hopefully everything will go well and there will be no problems with the insurance approval for me.

But I truly know what you are going though right now.  You are doing really well and all you have to do is keep focused on the end result, which is a new improved YOU.  Right now, for me there are days when I'm ready as ever to get things started and have the sugery.  But recently things for me have been very difficult mentally and stress-wise, but I just take each day as it comes and have faith in the ultimate decision that the surgery is right for me.  

But I just want to know that you are doing great.  Keep up the good work and have faith in your ultimate decisionl.  Nerves get the best us us someimes but don't let them over-ride you.

Best wishes in your upcoming surgery.
Kris

I just had my RNY last Tuesday, and it's funny because I only had to be on clear liquids two days prior, but on those days, I felt like I was going to flip out.  I thought, "what the hell am I doing"....  I didn't think t hat I could go through with it... but actually i just told myself that I made it this far... I can complete this to get healthy. 

It was funny because while i was in the hospital i still watched the food channel (my fave), but this time I kept thinking... is that really a good choice?  how can I change that recipe to make it more to my lifestyle change.   I'm not sorry.  A friend who had it done five years ago told me that at some time right after her surgery , she wanted a piece of pizza in the worst way.. she even cried and asked if she did the right thing... She has no regrets and has been my biggest inspiration. I also have a friend who came to see me that night of surgery and she told me that I will be able to eat things again, but it is just going to take some time.  I know that I will be able to eat the foods I love, but just in moderationa and just not right now.... Good luck to you.

Thanks for the posts. I can't believe it has come so quickly. 

We all make sacrifices for thngs we want or need.  This is no different.  But the rewards are unbelievable( Im 14 months out and still cant believe  it ).....you will be healthier which should make a longer and happier life.  The cost benefit ratio should definitely be a very unablanced scale in the positive.  I cant wait to see  when you post all your WOW moments....its really a great feeling to do small things like wrap a regular size towel around your body after a shower, to climb a flight of steps without losing yor breath, to buy pants 3sizes smaller hell even 1 size smaller.   Everyday can be a challenge but every challenge you meet is a goal accomplished.  Celebrate and Enjoy!!!!! 

 Thanks... count down...3 days to go. 

Lots of good luck.  Will be thinking of you.