Kinda rethinking things..

for the past few days the thought of the surgery is scaring the crap out of me. I think it'****ting me now cause I finally have my appt with the Doc and after this it's just  a waiting game with the ins. company. It's reality setting in I think.  After reading that post about malabsorbtion problems and that lady dying Im pretty freaked out now. Im questioning what if I follow that vitamin regimine perfectly and my body still rejects them. DO I wanna be on the verge of death by 30 just to be thin? I mean it's just really scary. I didn't really think about how you're body can just reject your vitamins. Im sitting here thinking all the while, "Hey if I take my vitamins I'll be fine!'  when that may not be the case.. Im just frustrated right now and very anxious.. and honestly scared about this whole thing.  I'm not asking for advice cause I know it's a decision that I have to make and everybody is different. I just need to let that out cause Im sort of alone in this process. (hubby is with me but that's about it).. Ryanne

Hi Ryanne,  I've had some anxiety about the same things and anxiety about actually not being able to eat food when it is such a big part of my life, telling friends, dealing with the attention I will recieve when thin....the list goes on. Everytime I start thinking of these things I always come to the same conclusion. I either do this or I remain fat and probably become fatter. I believe that if I continue on this path, I am going to have all sorts of health problems, self esteem issues and so on. I know you have to make this decision for yourself. For me, the surgery will save my life. The chances of health problems as I get older and heavier are greater than the risks involved in the surgery. Just something to think about!!

That's what the other half of me is thinking too.. Im sort of torn. I have the appt with the surgeon on Wed. This will be our first meet. I guess I'll just talk to him about this and find out how likely this malabsorbtion thing is.. So we'lls ee.. I keep ya posted on whats up. Thanks for listening.  Ryanne

AbbyGirl, Anyone that has come to this place(considering gastric bypass surgery) is already beyond dieting to lose weight.  It's a life or death issue by now, and food is no longer a big part of your life but a major contributing factor in your death.  Morbid obesity untreated is almost always fatal.  No one can go through life with this disease and keep gaining weight, and NOT have health problems related to/as a result of obesity.  Think about it.  I will always have my heart disease because it is mostly genetic, and some folks will always have diabetes, but the progression of these diseases is almost always slowed or stopped by taking off the excess weight. I would have the surgery every month for the rest of my life if that's what it took. KathyG

Which surgery are you having done? RNY or Lap Band? There is no malabsorption with Lap Band.

Well Lap Band is not covered by my insurance. Only RNY is.

I think everything we do in life is a gamble.  We get fatter we run the risk of dying from choking on a doughnut!  We get this surgery we run the risk of malabsorption...but I think the malabsorption from this surgery is not as bad....I do have a vitamin B deficiency of sorts...I have low white counts but that is it.  I stay on top of my vitamins and calcuim.  Its a lifetime committment that I said I would do.  Its definitely normal to wonder is this really what you want to do....I didn't have a choice at 425 lbs...I had to do something like the RNY to get my life back.  Glad I did it too!  Its definitely a decision only you can make but talking to a professional and hearing about the surgery is a  good thing.  Good luck with what you decide. Debbie

THanks Debbie! My appt is on Wednesday. I'll let ya know how Im feeling after speaking with him! lol