I have a face!

Wow I just found out thru posting a reply to someone that OH gave me my face! (not that I like it but hey it won't look like this forever!)

Krista you silly gal...You are a very pretty girl........unfortunately It sounds like you grew up with the same thing I did...the "pretty face syndrom" "you're such a pretty girl...if you only lost some weight".....Is that a backwards compliment if you ever heard one...??? I still get that to this day.....and I'm 38. What was really nice was yesterday I had a meeting with the manager's and my director I work with..& our company is getting ready to close in a few weeks... We were talking about what we were going to do after our closing & everyone knows I'm going for the surgery. One of the managers said to me..."mickey I know you're doing this for your health, however we all love & accepted you for who you were...a smart, pretty, talented, funny, lady." It made me feel good. Then they all gave me a round of applause...Of course I cried...it was nice that they saw beyond the weight. UGH... Ok I'm rambling.. Mickey

OMG doesn't it just suck to have someone say OMG u have such a pretty face and you know they are thinking "but damn the rest of you has got to go!!!" Backwards compliment indeed. I know only someone who has gone thru it will take this the right way but I am more than just a "pretty face" too bad they don't see past the weight to the real me! Awwwwwwwww I'm sorry your company is closing...sounds sad But it must be so nice to know how much they all love and respect you for who you are and not just the "pretty face" I woulda cried too! hahahaha of course with me I woulda been like ok shut up now(I dont take compliments well lol) Ramble away hun....when is ur surgery? Krista

Hey Krista, My surgery is 4/26. I'm very excited & a little scared. I'm afraid of screwing up the gift that is being given me. I'm afraid I'm going to fail at keeping the weight off once the surgery & my recovery is on it's correct path....SIGH the old records keep playing in my head... I don't think ANY of us who has struggled with a weight issue does well with compliments...it's something I never was comfortable with...probably because it brought so much attention to me.... I just came back from KMart to pick up shampoo and a few other items...& I always go to the plus size area to check things out....I started thinking to myself "this will be the last time, I'll be shopping for "big girl" clothes.....VERY surreal.... Krista...I agree we are MORE THAN A FACE...it's just unfortunate that people cannot see beyond the skin...SIGH... Hugs, Mickey

Hey Mickey, Wow ur date is coming very soon!!! I am very happy for you, jealous but happy lol. I am on my way also and hope to have a date soon! I will let you know.(I have the last of all my appts between now and the 16th) I understand the exicted part, I don't feel the scared part yet but I am sure I will when it comes closer to my time! I don't think you will screw up the gift, as most of us have researched this and made peace with the decision to go thru with it....I read in someones profile that being a size(insert SMALL size here) tasted better than any food ever did. That will be my new mantra! lol I also can relate about the old records...but time to get new ones! The old ones are no good any longer!! Funny tho when I was still working and hanging out with people I THOUGHT were good friends, we all liked to be the center of attention. But I hate having a lot of attention focused on me especially negative. I hate walking into a room and seeing people look at me like "damn look at that fat girl" even tho who knows what they are saying, but to me I KNOW. I loved going to the support group because everyone in the room felt exactly the same way, whether they are pre op or post op. No one judged anyone and that was awesome! It must have been nice , but yes a little surreal thinking OMG will I really be able to get out of this section of clothing and be able to go "over there"! I can't wait. I made a list of some things I want to be able to do after and one of them is shop in Fashion Bug on the "skinny side" of the store. I know it will happen but I will prolly always feel as if I am on the wrong side. Well you know what? You and I and many others on here know we are more than just faces, and soon the world will see it too. Too bad they can't realize it when we are still obese or MO or SMO etc....we are all still the same inside. Ok enough of my soap box hahaha Feel free to email or send me messages any time. I am always here if you need or want to chat! It is so nice to talk to people in CT who know exactly what I am going through. I have a select group of friends who want to understand, but do they REALLY?? One does because she is going to be having the surgery herself with your same Dr so I know she and I can help each other, but what about the rest of them? I guess time will tell. You take care and have a wonderful night!! Hugsssssss Krista

Hey girl, Sorry I didn't get back to you sooner. I've been on vacation this week, and I've been going through a really bad "blue funk" with depression??? It's not PMS for sure. I think the enormity of my losing my job in about 2 weeks and the upcoming surgery is taking it's toll on me a little. My husband is worried that I won't be able to "stick" to the after "eating" portion of the surgery. SIGH...he's been badgering me a little...out of LOVE mostly but it sure is getting on my last nerve. He's afraid I won't have my "mind set" to only be able to eat a little bit or drink shakes....I keep telling him "I'm ready" for this...but for whatever reason he sees otherwise. I cut out sweets in November...try not to have 2nd helpings now...& if we go out I stick to "better choices" such as fish...chicken... and salads. I just gave up caffiene this week & keep getting SPLITTING headaches so I'm wondering if this could be withdrawal symptoms??? LOL... I go on the 14th for my 3 hour surgery seminar...GULP! IT's coming up so quickly! They'll be weighing me & taking blood. I sure hope I haven't gained any weight back that I lost...that would be a downer. Went for a walk today & thought I was going to have a heart attack... I'm WAY out of shape...I used to be able walk 4-5 miles a day at a drop of a hat...Oh well...one day at a time at this point. Your are SOOO right...I have a "little" list of things I want to try...like hip hugger pants..and a shirt WITHOUT sleeves..LOL... I agree it's nice that we all have so mu*****ommon on the board..that we can relate. For those who know about my surgery..they're very supportive but don't "get it." My father in law keeps asking why I don't just go on a diet....LOL....I think it's universal with "skinny" people..they all think just don't eat & you'll be fine...LOL... Hugs back atcha, Mickey