Emotional

I am feeling so emotional lately. I started the liquid diet on Monday,due to having lap-rny on 2/15. I've been so excited everything was approved and I finally had my date. Now that I started the liquid diet, I've been hungry. I keep asking myself if I am doing the right thing. Could I have done this without the WLS? I was much more positive about things before this week. I don't know what's going on. Did anyone else have mixed feelings,doubts, or just plane scared? I'm not sure if I am having all these feelings just because I am scared. I went to see the pastor at my church on Tue. and I felt a lot better after I left, but I'm back to feeling the same way again. I look at my children and think, is the risk worth them possibly losing me. My pastor said that if this was really meant to be and what I really wanted, I would feel at peace with it. I don't know what to think anymore. Thanks for all your help everyone! Christine

Hi Christine, What you are feeling is so normal. I went through the same thing right before surgery but I knew it really was the only way for me. It is a very scary thing to go through, but 6 months later, I would do it again in a heartbeat. I will be sending prayers your way. Sandy

Sany, Thank you so much! It helps to know this is normal. I know this is the only way for me too. Thank you also for the prayers, I need them. Christine

I felt alot of the same way a week before my surgery. I was scared and wondered if I would be leaving my daughter without a mom. But, someone said to me, "How many obese people do you see around that are old?" NONE... The risk of actually dying on the table is so so small, and you have had all the pre-op tests to determine any risks involved. Your surgeon feels you are a good candidate, right? So, you needn't worry about that. Think instead of all the years you will be adding to your life...and good quality years too!! A year ago I was sitting on the sidelines watching life go by me. Not doing anything physical because it was too tiring. Even the mall was too much for me...Now I go ice skating with my little one. I get down on the floor and play games with her...You get the picture. It has added tremendously to me being a good mommy, and of course in all the other areas of my life as well... Have faith in your surgeon, and have faith in your higher power. He lead you down this path for a reason!! Good luck to you!! Anne

Thank you Anne. Your right God did lead me down this path for a reason. I am feeling much better, right now. I do want to be able to spend all those wonderful moments with my children that I've missed from being overweight. I really can't wait to do all those things, and grow old with my kids. Thanks so much! Christine

Hey there! I am having RNY the same day you are and I am nervous as heck, can't really sleep that well, driving my family crazy with nerves! I think you are perfectly normal. Only you know what is best for you. Best of luck to you with your surgery...I will be in the room next door! LOL

Thank you Kristin! I'm driving my husband nuts too. Best of luck to you too! Let me know how your doing after. Christine

Christine- I remember the time you're going through well. Everyone must make their peace with this HUGE decision in a different way. Personally, I had no children to worry about. But, it still was a question of life or death that I was pondering, and not one to be taken lightly. It's a very important thing that you're acknowledging the seriousness of your decision and questioning it. It WILL help bring you to your answer that will give you peace. Personally, I don't quite understand or relate well to those who never had dobut. How can you NOT question completely taking your life in your hands and changing it's direction? What I thought most about was my escalating medical problems which were quickly spiraling out of control, and my complete and total dissatisfaction with my quality of life as an obeese person. I was worried about the -maybe I CAN do it on my own- and the -maybe I SHOULD try dieting just ONE MORE time- but I came to know that this was my fears stepping in the way to try and cloud my decision. I just KNEW down deep that one more diet or one more try would lead me to the same result as every OTHER diet I've ever tried- and that result was obesity. Period. I can tell you that I don't have the answer for you, but I do understand your situation. What made my decision final for me was this: The pain of my life and future if I stayed the way I was was far greater than the fear of moving forward with this incredible decision to change my life. As someone who has been there- I wish you peace in your decision and the comfort of knowing that whatever decision you make will be the RIGHT one for YOU. As someone who is where you are contemplating going (to the loosing side) I wish that you have the courage to make this incredible leap and move on to a new life for yourself and your family. This is the best decision I've EVER EVER made. I've never regretted it, even through the trials and tribulations of a post op. sincere best wishes for your future, and a great big reassuring hug, Lisa C

Lisa, You are such an inspiration. I'm 3 months out, almost, and loving the loss and the changes in my physical appearance and my emotional comfort. I just read your last journal update. Thanks for being there for us. I'm looking forwards to reaching goal and maintenance. Life is good!

Thanks for the hug! I am feeling much better now. I am moving forward, and looking forward to being on the losing side. I can't wait to start my new life. Your story helped me a lot. I have the support of my husband and children,and many friends and family. Along with all of you. Thank you so much and I will definately let you know how I'm doing when I get home next weekend. Thanks so much! Christine