I need some Prayers...

AND a kick in the butt..... My holiday weekend was okay but did start off very badly. We got a phone call early Christmas eve that my cousin Margie was struck by a car in Blockbuster parking lot. Come to find out she was backed over then ran over again when the woman went into drive. We went to St. Marys and she, Thank God has no interal injury's and is stable but had to be operated on because her leg was crushed and her shin completly broken. So the prayers are needed for my poor cuz who had to spend the holidays and who knows how long in the hospital. She wont be able to walk for at least 2 months and wont know if the surgery was a success for 3-6 months. (they put a steal rod from her knee to her ankle) The kick in the butt is for me who came home from the hospital and pigged out on cookies till I puked. The whole time in my head I was saying to myself. "you shouldn't be doing this" "what are you stupid?" But my emotions, nerves and stress won. I understand what I went through having this surgery and I will except any input, lectures, or lashings that come my way. It happened more than once over the weekend and I even was avoiding coming to the board but I know you all have been tempted and I feel like such a failure. I feel like not only have I let down myself but everyone who I have been an inspiration to. I am starting from scratch and flooding myself with fluids and strictly protein to get myself back to basics. I have been on my 2nd plateau with my weight and cant get past the 90 lb mark and I probably gained 10 over the weekend. Thanks for letting me confess and vent to all. It's very embarrassing, even humiliating but I needed to do this and get any input and advice that is out there. I hope everyones holiday went well and that no one made the same mistakes that I did. ~Julie~

Julie This is WHY you come here...to vent-to get encouragement and support. None of us are perfect and emotions have gotten the best of all of us! After being so good for the holidays...I grazed all day yesterday..but when I sat down and wrote what I ate, it wasn't as much as I thought or would have eaten a year ago! Do not beat yourself up..you are on the right track--going back to basics with all protein is the way to go! Good luck. Prayers for your cousin too. I wish her a speedy recovery. You have had lots of tragedy in your family lately...Hang in there and give yourself a break! Love, Joanie

Hi Julie, The last thing you need is a kick in the butt! With all the stress of your cousin and the Holiday stress and foods that are available it really is no wonder that you over ate. We are all still learning how to cope with the emotional overeating that we do during these periods. You recognize that you still have a problem with this so now you just have to figure out a way to substitue eating with something else to combat the stress. Walking helps me. Although I am not overeating, I do find myself very irritable during stress much more so then when I could eat my way out of it. I wish you only the best and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your cousin. Hang in there, you will do fine ,and you are NOT a failure. You are human! Love, Sandy

Julie - Sandy and Joanie said it perfectly! I am not post op yet, so it is hard to give advice on screwing up, excet say that today is a new day. But I can tell ya that I am pulling for your cousin and hope that her recovery is speedy and uneventful. Have a great day! Phyllis

Hi Julie, I hope everything works out fine for your cousin. Please keep us informed. Now, as far as the overeating goes, you know it's a slip, you know today is another day, but what it appears you dont know (or remember) is that you are human! We all slip up now and then. Confession is good for the soul! Now, go for a walk, eat some protein, and make the most out of today. And tomorrow too! Hope you had a wonderful holiday, -Deb

Jules... First of all...you do not need a swift kick in the arse...and QUIT BEATING YOURSELF UP OVER THIS!!!!!!!! THAT'S AN ORDER!!!! (LOL) What you need to do is realize that today is a new day...any mistakes we've made in the past are exactly that...in the past. They are gone...I am sure you did not gain 10 lbs. You may feel that way...all bloated and icky...but, you are already doing the right thing...fluids and protein. And tomorrow is another new day...and you'll do it right again tomorrow...I'm sure of it. Hugs and Prayers to you and your family... Love ya girl!!! ~CAE~

Julie, Boy can I relate! I did the same...still can't get back on track! And I had no excuse!!! I'm gonna go one hr at a time, and I suggest you do the same. We are all in this together! So keep it vocal! We need to support each other. I'll keep your cousin in my prayers. JA

....... as I eat some Chex Mix. Eeeep See, we all got yer back, girlfriend. It's possible to slip up and luckily, you yacked yer brains out! That'll learn ya! Joanie is right in that, you might think you are eating a boatload, but think about how much or what you ate at this time last year, I can guarantee you will feel better. I still can only eat very small portions in a sitting because I get full almost instantly - but there are times (like right this second) where I find myself grazing and it's certainly not a piece of chicken! Well, what can ya do. AND Deb is right .. confession is good for the soul. You, at least, know you shouldn't have eaten the cookies. That's half the battle, right? I am sorry to hear about your cousin. That is really an awful story. I can't imagine that amount of pain she was in. Ack! I am praying for her. Tara