Hard
Hey guys. I can't help but realize now that I'm 17 days post op how much my entire life revolved around food. I am amazed. You work really hard to be ready physically and mentally for this surgery, but honestly, nothing can prepare you for the total reality of it all.
I can't believe how much my life revolved around food. Socially, emotionally, everything. It's really hard to break those habits. I drove home from an interview today and drove past McDonalds and honestly thought - hey, I've got time for a drive thru apple pie! Um...nope. Kept driving. Then drove by my favorite chinese restaurant - hey! Why don't I get dinner for everyone! Um....nope. It's been one thing after another these past 2 weeks.
I hope that this tool will help me create better eating habits (I'm sure it is). Since I CAN'T eat, it makes the choices a heck of a lot easier. But mentally, it is HARD. I miss food. I mourn it almost. To take a big bite of something, anything. Miss it.
Now, having said that, has anyone else experienced this? And does it get easier? I can only assume that after time, and after reconditioning yourself, it must get easier. Also, the more weight you lose, the more motiviated you must be to keep going......
I was just wondering how everyone else felt about it. Ramble ramble.....and does it get better with time??
Love and so thankful for this message board......
Tammy
36 pounds gone forever.
Tammy,
You read my mind, I was just thinking about this subject! I will tell you honestly that some days are TOUGH and some are much easier. Tomorrow makes 10 weeks, which totally blows my mind. The first 2-3 weeks were the easiest. Stress sucks. I never really considered myself a big emotional eater, but I have now realized that emotions play a much bigger part that I thought!
I am sure it will get easier, but we will always have to battle our demons!
Love,
Carmen
(59 lbs gone forever)
Tammy:
It does get easier with time. Your menu will expand to incorporate more of a variety which helps. I do have days where I want to fill a void the way I used to with food but I am unable to anymore so it forces you to find new ways to cope with issues. You just need to choose to make good choices. I agree there are somethings you just can not prepare for.
Seeing the weightloss is a great motivator. It keeps me going. I am 36 pounds from my dr.'s goal.
Hang in there....You are doing great. You have a great attitude and that is half the battle right there!!!!
Chryssie
Hi Tammy,
Did you read my mind? I posted a similiar post the other day. I was never a junk food eater, but I love to eat, who doesn't? What really bothers me is that everyone eats when they are not hungry. Why will this stop that? And, oh by the way, I'm also 17 days post op, and I've yet to feel "full". I'm satified with my 3 meals of 2 oz a day, but I want, just once, to feel full so I can understand what my capacity is. I'm beating myself up because yesterday I had my 6 oz of puree and after dinner I walked by the fridge and had a sip of protein shake. I can't believe that I fetl guilty over a sip of protein shake, but I did. I guess we all need to modify our behavior and remember why we did this to begin with, to be successful and healthy! BTW, today was a much better day for me, and I made a list of daily goals:
Exercise to start at least 5 hours a week.
Try to get in 64 oz or more of water.
Eat protein first, at least 45 grams.
Keep fat down to a minimum.
Keep carbs down to a minimum.
Paula:
You will feel full but not yet. Your pouch does not have all the feeling back in it yet. I did not start to feel full for a good couple of months. I know when I am full now that is for sure!!! In the begining go by measurements. I really do not snack like I did pre-op. I don't have the desire to anymore. I don't know why. Things don't taste the same to me anymore. I pretty much now eat when I have to. It does get easier with time. Don't make yourself feel guilty. Things will fall into place.
Take Care,
Chryssie
Thank you. No one has said a word about how long it takes the pouch to heal. I'm 3 weeks out, still on puree and doing fine with the portions. I consider myself lucky, have yet to be sick or feel sick and my head is in the right place with making good food choices.
I hear new grumblings now and then, mostly if I drink or eat too fast. I'm still healing and feel like I was in a fight in the north end of town.

Yes Tammy I know exactly what you are going through. I swear I saw more food commercials while I was recouperating than I had seen in my whole life. It gets much easier as time goes on. It actually amazes me now when I go to a restaurant now and look at the portions people are eating. I can't believe that I ever ate like that.
It's odd to think that McDonalds no longer is a necessity in my life. I was an avid weekend breakfast person. Now when I need something quick, a cheeseburger without the top bun is hard for me to finish. Who woulda thunk it.
You should mourn food. It was a friend and a comfort. As you start seeing results, you will be so motivated by your success, you'll forget all about that long lost friend.
You are doing fantastic!!! 36 pounds is great. Congratulations.
By the way, how did the interview go?
Maggie

yes, yes and YES! I know exactly what you mean...it is so HARD to stop thinking in terms of food and your next 'fix'. I have to tell you that I found it particularly difficult on Vacation.
Apparently, everything on my vacations seemed to revolve around what we'r going to eat next, where we're going to get the next meal or what delicious little treat we were going to try. I REALLY didn't know that I did this pre-op. It hit home when I went on vacation to the Cape at 7 mos PO and I couldn't do it. I was so...lost...disappointed...and shocked.
I don't really have an answer for 'what to do' but I wanted to let you know that I've experienced this too. I think with time and the realization that it can't be that way ever again, it does get better.
best,
lisa