stress.....

I'm a little stressed and dragging this morning, I think its just a lot of worries on my mind.   My best friend is going in for surgery today and her mother after being hospitalized for almost a month and being in a hospice for another month, came home in time for Christmas.  Now she's back in the hospital with kidney failure .   First the mom - She's extremly overweight, has a large size tumor (the doctors estimate it to weigh around 50+ lbs).  She's been seen by my surgeon and he has hopes of helping her threw WLS however he can't operate on her because they can't get her health stable and off some meds long enough.  I pray that God will help the doctors find a way to improve her health so that she can become eligible (medically) for the WLS.  That the good lord guide my surgeons hands, thoughts and actions to help her as he has helped me.   I'm awaiting word on what the status of my friends mom.  IF she will need dialysis or if she will be fine or what is going on.  I only have gotten a bit, which is honestly all they have right now.   My best friend - (my son's godmother and i love her like if she was my own blood sister) ...  she went in this morning for surgery.  I knew she was scheduled this month, but totally forgot it was today.  Its not WLS, its something else.  I got a message from her husband, whom I'm close to as well, that she'd just gone in and the surgery was expected to last 3 hours.      So my mind can't get it together today to function at work.  Its 1008am and I've yet to drink my morning tea.. heck I haven't drunk a single thing. I know I have to I just keep worrying and thinking of them and forgot... My tea is probably cold now and I have it in a metal container so no nuking it! Also can barely eat.  I managed to force down 1/2oz of egg and 1.5 slice of bacon. Was gaging and naseaus but knew i had to get food into me.  I've packed a nice high protein meal for the day (snacks and food), but I have no appetite, no desire to eat...   Who would have figured... I use to be the total opposite not that long ago... I get stress, bring out the candies, cakes, chips, etc...  now food... BLAH.... the thought of those few items i just type had my tummy turning... *sigh* I did remember my vitamins so far, but that's because I put 2 weeks dosages in snack bags and put them in my work drawer, so when I grab tea or anything from there I see them and remind myself I have to take them...  I guess I'm just venting in the hopes that it will help me let out some of what i am feeling and be able to start focusing on work, what needs to be done today and what not... but I still worry about them a lot! 

Hope you are able to destress - it's hard not to worry, but try to take care of yourself inspite of it.

Hang in there - your friends are in my prayers - as are you.

Thanks Tammy! How are you and the baby doing? I did get a piece of good news.  My friends husband sent me a message to let me (and the rest of the family) know that surgery went smoothly and she's in recovery now.  THANK GOD!   He'll update more when he gets to see her and she is in her own room.   Still no news on her mom though.

Stress can mess us up so badly.  have Faith---mathew 6: 25--"Do not Worry"  Sometimes we just have to put things into God's hands and KNOW he'll take it from there.   Prayers for you and your friends--nibble some protein to keep yourself healthy so you can be there for them. 

Thank you so much!   Really appreciate the thoughts and prayers. My friends are doing much better.  My son's godmother is home resting, the surgery went very well and she is now recouping. Her mom is also improving. She's still hospitalized because she has developed a fever and they are trying to control it however she's improving.  She will not need dialsys long term, they expect her to be off of it by the time she leaves the hospital which is AWESOME news.   Thankfully I did not fall of the wagon to badly and I made sure to track my protein and fluid intake.  I was a little more laxed on the carbs but didn't binge on them.. so instead of 20-30g I probably had more like 30-40g this weekend, but made sure to keep my protein up over 75g each day and minimum of 64floz every day. Thank you all and thank God for watching over all of us!