S.O.S. They've shut me off food all together!

HI DEE!!!! FIRST OFF LET ME TELL YOU THAT I UNDERSTAND HOW HARD IT IS TO DIET. I AM IN THE PRE-OP PHASE AND I ALSO THINK WELL IF IF DIETS WORKED FOR ME THEN I WOULDN'T BE OVERWEIGHT. BUT THEY DON'T AND THAT IS WHY I AM GOING FOR THR RNY. I JUST HAD MY 1ST NUTRITION APPOINTMENT WITH JUDY FOR DR. BARBA'S OFFICE ON APRIL 29TH, 2004 AND MY NEXT ONE IS SCHEDULED FOR THIS UPCOMING MAY 25TH, 2004. I KNOW THAT I HAVE HAD THREE AND A HALF WEEKS TO DROP SOME WEIGHT. I WEIGHED IN AT 404.9 AND JUDY SAID SHE WOULD LIKE ME TO DROP DOWN TO AT LEAST UNDER 400 POUNDS. I HAVE HAD A ROUGH THREE WEEKS AND TRUTH IS I HAVEN'T DIETED THAT FAITHFULLY. BUT THERE IS ALSO OTHER FACTORS LIKE I JUST HAD TO TAKE PROGESTERONE FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS AND NOW I AM PMS'ING AND WILL HAVE WATER WEIGHT WHEN I SEE JUDY, AS WELL AS HAVING A STEROID SHOT WHICH DOESN'T HELP. AND A CHANGE IN MEDICATION. I FIGURE THAT I PROBABLY GAINED AT LEAST 5 POUNDS THIS MONTH, SO I STARTED DOING ATKINS THIS MONDAY 5/17/04 WITH THE HOPES OF BY NEXT TUESDAY LOSING THE 5 POUNDS PROBABLY GAINED AS WELL AS THE 6 POUNDS TO PUT ME UNDER 400. BUT YESTERDAY I GOT SOME BAD NEWS AND I BROKE DOWN AND HAD SOME PIZZA AND CHOCOLATE(AND I HATE CHOCOLATE...SO THAT GOES TO SHOW TOTAL EMOTIONAL EATING). ANYWAYS I FIGURED THAT I PROBABLY DAMAGED THE LAST THREE DAYS OF HARD WORK BUT I DIDN'T LET THAT BRING ME DOWN AND I JUMPED BACK ON THE ATKINS HORSE TODAY. SO YOU MESSED UP AND GAINED 9 POUNDS. DON'T GET HARD ON YOURSELF. JUST TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME...LORD KNOWS THAT IS ALL I CAN DO! AND AFTER READING YOUR POST I GOT A LITTLE NERVOUS AND THOUGHT OH MY GOD AFTER ALL THESE MONTHS OF HARD WORK AND DOING MY PRE-OPS I WOULD BE DEVESTATED IF THEY TURNED ME AWAY. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF OUR PARTICULAR SURGEONS OFFICE REALLY UNDERSTANDS THE CONCEPT OF WHY WE ARE THERE. DON'T THEY UNDERSTAND DIETS DON'T WORK FOR US?!!! I UNDERSTAND THEM WANTING TO DO THE TEN DAY LIQUID PROTEIN FAST 10 DAYS BEFORE SURGERY BECAUSE IT SHRINKS OUR LIVER AND MAKES IT SAFER FOR US. BUT REALISTICALLY MY SURGERY WON'T BE TILL PROBABLY SEPTEMBER. SO DOES THAT MEAN FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS I HAVE TO FOLLOW A STRICT DIET. IF THAT WAST THE CASE I WOULDN'T BE GOING FOR BARIATRIC SURGERY. I ALSO UNDERSTAND THAT WE NEED TO SHOW COMMITMENT. AND I HAVE THAT IN ME. MY HIGHEST WEIGHT WAS 432 AND NOW IT IS 404.9. SO I HAVE SHOWED A NICE SLOOOOOOW WEIGHT LOSS. I DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE TO MUCH SO THE INSURANCE COMPANY WILL STILL PAY FOR IT. I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT THEY WOULD WANT US TO DO A SENSIBLE DIET LIKE WEIGH****CHERS SO WE CAN STILL ENJOY CERTAIN FOODS WITH FLEX POINTS AND LOSE WEIGHT SLOWLY TILL THE PROTEIN FAST BUT I WAS TOLD AT MY LAST MEETING THAT LOW CARB IS IDEAL. I WILL DO IT TILL THE SECOND NUTRITION MEETING NEXT WEEK THEN I WILL TALK TO JUDY AGAIN ABOUT WEIGH****CHERS. BUT MY QUESTION FOR YOU IS WHEN DID JUDY REALLY WANT YOU TO BUCKLE DOWN? LIKE AT YOUR SECOND APPT.? OR DID YOU GO TO THE 1ST THEN THE SECOND, AT WHICH TIME SHE TOLD YOU HOW MUCH YOU NEED TO LOSE BY THE TIME YOU SEE DR. BARBA? LIKE AM I GONNA BE PENALIZED SINCE IT IS MY 2ND APPT. LIKE IF I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT? WILL SHE BE LIKE YOU HAVE GAINED WEIGHT SO BY THE TIME YOU SEE DR.BARBA YOU NEED TO LOSE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF WEIGHT! WILL I BE GIVEN THAT CHANCE? SHE REALLY HASN'T PUT ME ON ANY SPECIAL DIET EXCEPT SAID LOW CARB IS IDEAL. LIKE AT THE SECOND ONE, IS THAT WHERE SHE GIVES ME A DIET TO FOLLOW? WHERE THEN SHE WILL BE LIKE OK HERE IS AN OUTLINED DIET TO FOLLOW AND I WILL SEE YOU IN A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF TIME TO WEIGH YOU IN? WHICH IN THAT TIME I MUST FOLLOW THE DIET OR I AM SCREWED? I HOPE THAT IS THE CASE. I WILL FOLLOW THAT DIET TO A T!!!!! SORRY FOR THE BOMBARD OF QUESTIONS. I AM JUST REALLY SCARED NOW! ALSO I WILL BE ATTENDING THE SUPPORT GROUP AT 6:00PM TO 8:00PM ON TUESDAY MAY 25TH, 2004 AT THE GENGRAS AUDITORIUM. MAYBE HOPEFULLY YOU WILL BE THERE AND WE CAN MEET. IF YOU NEED ANY HELP AT ALL OR JUST WANT TO TALK BEFORE AND AFTER SURGERY PLEASE LET ME KNOW. I AM WILLING TO HELP! FEEL FREE TO CALL ME AT HOME AT 1-860-727-0468, OR ON MY CELL AT 1-860-478-0680. OR E-MAIL ME AT [email protected] TILL THE TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS!!!! PS: IF YOU CAN GET BACK TO ME AND LET ME KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT AT MY NEXT NUTRITION/CLASS APPOINTMENT, I'D BE REALLY REALLY GRATEFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR FRIEND IN WLS, MARY SCHAUB