Miss you all... Very sad time

Hello to all. I wanted to drop in and give you an update and vent a little. On April 28th my family got a phone call that will change our lives forever, my Aunt(my moms sister) was dead, murdered in KY. Not only was she brutally killed but, my cousin, her own son did it. I don't know if it's all settled in yet. I just don't know how someone can shoot their mother in the head 4 times in cold blood. It's something you see on the news or in movies but you never in a million years think you would experience this first hand. My aunts daughter was so distraught and through sobs asked us to come to TN where she is , my mom, sister and I went. As days passed we found out more details and helped my cousin with everything so we could bring my Aunt Pam back to CT to be buried. We layed her to rest on Saturday. I keep praying she is at peace. I'm sorry if I brought anyone down but my Aunt was so excited about me having my surgery and she was planning to come here for it. This has made me more determined then ever to do this and it feels good to know she is watching over me on the other side. All is set for me to have surgery Except I have to lose the weight the Dr. is asking of me. I am having MAJOR issues with retaining fluid still. Before all this happened I was on a very strict diet and was measuring myself and lost 22 inches total but had gained weight(go figure). In 7 hours I lost 8 lbs so obviously there is a big problem. From the 18 hour drive to TN I was so filled with fluid I gained 20 lbs so they have to figure something out. Even if they have me on a liquid diet for a week before the surgery to get my liver to shrink. They have to do something. I am willing to do whatever it takes. My PCP can't figure out why this is happening. He is baffled but he wants me to have the surgery as soon as possible. Anyway, I am keeping my chin up and trying to be there for my Mom and family through all this. I am so proud of all of you who have had your surgerys, my prayers are always with you. Hang in there. Thanks for everything. ~Julie~ Pre-Op

Hello Julie, We all missed you from this message board. I am so sorry to hear about this sad new. I wish I would give you a big bear hug through this message board Only God knows why this had happened and it is hard for all of us missed someone we love who are not here with us . I know your Aunt is sitting on your shoulder now and watch you over this surgery WE all hope to see you at Gathering party in June 12th. Hang in there. Thank you for sharing sad new with all of us. We are praying for you to loose your weight before your surgery will be here before you know. Kathy

Julie, How terrible for you and your family. My sincerest condolences go out to all of you. We have missed you too. You have really been going through alot of trials lately but it sounds like you are keeping strong and pushing foward with your desire to become healthier and to live your life to the fullest. I hope they figure out why you are retaining fluids so much and that they can remedy that soon. Keep up your great attitude and things will get better!! Linda

Julie, I am so sorry to hear of this tragedy. I'm sure your Aunt is now at Peace, and I hope you and your family will be too. We're all here for you. Hang in there. My condolences, -Deb

Julie- I'm SO very sorry for your family. What a terrible, double loss for you. I can't imagine the horror of losing a loved one to violence and then finding out it was committed by a family member. I don't know how you make peace with that, but, I wish the very best for you and your family. I hope you can heal and know tht your aunt is at peace. I hope your cousin will get the help he obviously needs, in addition to the proper punishment. Rest assured, God is with you, even when it feels like he's not. Hang in there. Please speak to the surgeon about what's going on with your weight. You're obviously trying and having complications that are beyond your control. Perhaps your PCP can speak to him and they can come to some consescus about what to do. Take care of yourself in this difficult time and try to be kind to yourself. Please send my sincere condolences to your family and do let us know if there is anything we can do to help you. (((Big Hug))), Lisa C

Julie, How horrible for you and your family! I am so sorry this happened. It is terrible to see anything bad happen to someone we love, but when it is caused by someone else we care about, it makes it all the harder to deal with. I will say a prayer for you and your family! No matter what though, try to stay focused on your weight loss journey, because no matter what else goes on in our lives only you can help yourself with that! And when things settle down, it would be sad to find that you have let your needs come last again (as we all tend to do I think). Hang in there, Anne

Julie -- I'm so saddened to hear about your terrible loss. It must be incomprehensible that such a thing could happen in your own family. I'll say prayers for you & for your family that you all are given the strength to heal. Your aunt is indeed in a better place, and she will be watching down on you as you go through this positive change in your life. I would definitely talk to the dr.'s office about the difficulties you are having -- it sounds like something beyond your control, so they need to be in the loop. I hope everything works out & they get you onto the losing side quickly and healthfully. Be good to yourself -- you need to do that now more than ever. I'll be thinking of you. God bless, Kathy F.

Julie, My prayers are definately with you and the rest of your family. I can't really even imagine how devastating this all must be for you. During the tough times, lean on the Lord - He will help you though it. If you ever need someone to pray with you, please contact me - I'll email you my phone number. Your up and down weight loss sounds serious to me -- so keep pushing to get an answer. Maybe speaking with your surgeon will help. I will be praying for you. God Bless, Kathy Bilodeau

Dear Julie, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It is wonderful of you to be there for the other members of your family, remember to take care of yourself too! Just remember we are all here for you and rooting for you. I hope it all works out. Christine

Oh Julie, What a horrible tragedy: I can't even imagine how you and your family must be suffering. Please accept my condolances and know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please continue to come here and share. We all care. angel