Getting More and More Nervous

Oh my gosh, I cannot stop eating. I have never eaten this much and packed it in day after day. My surgery is scheduled for April 27, and it seems worlds away. I feel so poorly physically, even becoming short of breath and feel like I'm going to bust! I do have to diet strictly the last 2 weeks before surgery, but I'm sure I'm putting on quite a bit of weight and I know that is dangerous to put it on so quickly. I'm really short on patience and am having quite a time "waiting" until surgery. I shouldn't be quite so nervous about it all, but I am. There's lots of crying going on with me, at unusual times and I feel like I'm way too depressed. And I should be delighted because it took a long time to appeal my first denial. I know there are no quick answers to feeling better, but if anyone can understand, it would be you folks on this message board. Most of my friends just cannot understand this type of anguish. Thanks for listening. I just keep on praying.

Hey Linda, Wow, I can totally understand you being nervous and I hope this helps. Think about when you first started this whole process, the time it has taken to get here and now you are this close. I am just in the beginning stages of the process. I go to my first info session April 8th and CANNOT WAIT! The beginning of a whole new life for me. I would cut off my right hand (I am left handed,haha) to be where you are!!! GOOD LUCK and best wishes!!!!! Carrie

Hi Carrie, Thanks for such a wonderful response. I am now going to remember how far I've come to get to this point. You're so kind to put it that way, knowing you're at the beginning of the process. I hope your time speeds along and that you're where you want to be before you know it! All the best! Linda.

Hi Linda, I'm sure you'll do well, but I you need to be careful with the eating. I know my surgeon, Dr. Aranow will cancel a surgery the morning of if he see's you've gained any weight back after he see's the final weigh in. That would set you back even farther and that would be totally depressing. Just think of the good things that will happen to you once that date does arrive!! Keep your chin up and be positive . Ann O.

Hi Ann. Thanks for mentioning that, about having the surgery cancelled if I gain after the final visit. That really makes you sit up and take notice! Have you had your surgery yet? When is/was it? I'm wishing you all the very best, and many thanks for responding. This will help me to get encouraged. Linda

Dear Linda, Hang in there you can do it! I know how it feels to be just waiting- you want to scream! I have had all my appointments done for weeks and now I'm just waiting for Lois to call.(too bad there's no nail biting icon!) I have days when I feel like I can't stop eating, too. I just remind myself that I am doing this surgery and I gotta get myself together. It's hard, but it's gotta be done. Look at all the before and after pictures, that always helps me! Good luck, Christine

Linda- You are not the first to have many "last meals", trust me, I made my rounds of all my favorite fast food restaurants and had as many sweet drinks and Godiva chocolate I could. My surgeon didn't make us go on any lo cal diets before surgery, but I can tell you from personal experience packing on those extra 20 pounds did set me back. It took me longer to get my mind set on what my goals were. Don't be too hard on yourself, just keep reminding yourself this is life saving surgery....it WILL change your life, I promise. But you want to be ready at the starting gate so while it's ok to allow yourself a last meal here and there, don't make that your main focus. Start a journal, start reading Barbara Thompson's book. Read profiles and keep your mind else where as much as you can. Convince yourself you are now in training for the journey of your life and lean on the message board as support. If you'd like email me and I'll share some other things that I wouldn't want to put out here for the world but it may help you to know. Hang in there Cheryl

Wow, Cheryl, you are great! I'm so appreciative of your help. This is absolutely the place to go with my troubles about the "heavy" life and surgery to get me through the rest of a "longer" life. I am really going to try and focus on my new future and try to stop all this over eating. It will make it harder in the longrun, huh? I'd very much like to correspond with you a bit and ask for more details of what it's like throughout the hospital stay and how it feels afterwards, like the emotional attachment to food, etc. Thanks so much, and talk to you soon. Linda.

HELLO i DO UNDERSTAND ABOUT BEING ALOT OF STRESS AND KEEPING EATING WITH FOODS. i HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN i WAS ALOT OF STRESS WITH MY CASE AGAINST DEPT. OF nAVY BUT TRY TO EAT BETTER FOODS UNTIL YOUR BIG DAY . I WILL THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING FOR YOU. HANG IN THERE UNTIL YOUR BIG DAY . HUGS KATHY K

Hi Kathy - Yes, I'm going to fit in some BETTER choices of food before my surgery. I know the Junk food will not improve my overall health at all. Thanks so much for your prayers and good wishes. I really appreciate you responding to my post. Take care, Linda.