Everything seems to be going Wrong!

First my WLS was scheduled on Jan 20th, then rescheduled to Jan. 28th. Today I had a call from the pulmonary doctor I saw in July, I have an appointment in Waterbury tomorrow at 7:45. I have an abcess on my back tooth, now I have to go a dentist, my job has some new projects that need to be done soon, my 6 year old granddaughter wants to me to have a pajama party next Saturday with the older grandchildren (this is my passion I have 8 granddaughters) My husband wants to have Prime Rib on Sunday cause we won't be eating that for awhile after my surgery, so I want my parents to come down for dinner on Sunday, but I have to get my brother to drive them cause they live in Danbury and I don't know if he will. My parents are in their late seventies. Tomorrow I want to go the Waterbury support group. Last time I went I was an hour early by mistake, so I went back home. And amid all this I'm supposed to be getting prepared psychologically for surgery, but right now it seems so unreal, like it will never happen. Then if I think about it, it gets really scary like I'm making a lot of trouble for myself just because I weigh 270 pounds. But then if I think of cancelling it, life is real scary, I just keep getting larger every year. At this rate I'll be 300 by the time I'm 53. And 350 by the time I'm 55. I'd like to enjoy my later years as much as possible and I don't think I can do it at this weight. Oh well, good night I'm going to watch TV.

Hi Susan, I know everything seems in disarray right now and that everything that can go wrong does but believe me when you are feeling better physically all these kind of things will be easier to take. When you feel healthy the stresses of everyday life aren't as difficult to handle. Take some deep breathes and press on foward. You have made your decision and you know its the right one for you. May your slide to the losing side be as uneventful and pain free as possible. I am soooo excited for you. Linda

Susan, I kinda know how your feeling. I am pre op and I only had my consultation this month but now I already have all these appointments set up within the next month, one after another. I think for a second and only a second "is this all going to be worth it?" then reality sets in. It will be Times 10. I want to be able to play with my neices that I love more than life itself. I want to shop whether its for clothes or whatever in any store without being in pain after walking through 2 aisles. I can't wait to be able to breathe better, bend better and do everything in life without a struggle or embarassment. I can't wait to just be healthy again. Such a nice thought. You should be so proud of yourself for getting this far.For taking control of your life. Another eight days is nothing considering what this is going to do for you. Keep your chin up...Take a deep breath and try to get through the next 8 days. The bright side is your family and work are keeping you busy so it will fly right by. I will be praying for you. ~Julie~

Hi Susan, Consider it a blessing that you have so much going on in your life right now! (Yes, really, consider it a blessing!) Since you are so busy, you don't have time to "dwell" on the "what ifs", and the time will just fly by! Just prior to surgery I had so much going on I couldn't keep it straight - my birthday was even the day before, and a support meeting on my birthday! I made the support meeting, believe it or not, and that was great - got me excited! You've come this far, and you've made a life-changing decision. Don't let a few obsticles get into your way - embrace them, they'll help you to get through this! God bless, and I'll be praying for a successful outcome to your surgery. Kathy Bilodeau Lap RNY 12/3/03 -50 lbs.

HEY Susan!! EVERYTHING IS GOING RIGHT!!! I looked at your list and the only real WRONG thing was the tooth thing, which you will get fixed in a jiffy! You have those pre op jitters going. Kathy has the right idea, make all this activity psych you up! Get you excited instead of nervous and feeling out of control. You are IN control for the first time probably in a long long time. You are taking control of your future by ensuring you'll enjoy those beautiful grandchildren for years to come! I'll be thinking of you, and I promise, I WILL try to call! love Cheryl in Burlington! OPEN RNY 4/2/03 -110 YIPPEE!