To All *****sponded to my Previous post

I wanted to thank everyone *****sponded to my rant yesterday. I feel better about things now. I know this decision is mine and I have to do what's best for me. One thing my sister said stuck with me though. She made a comment about me becoming this awful Bi*$# when I get skinny. I know that is just her own issues coming out and she was reacting to me "offending" her but that irked me. I'm going to be the same Julie. I'll have the same heart. I just may be more proud, more self-confident. I could go on but I won't. So I am staying away from her till the smoke clears. You all had awesome advice and I will be taking you up on your "coffee talk" offers. I just want to get thru the Holiday and New Year. Then I am going to have some post-op friends over to discuss her concerns. Oh and I wanted to share with everyone who feels discouraged... Or like me think to myself I have to lose a whole 200 lbs. "Oh my god, thats going to take forever" and so on. I just got off the phone with my friend Benji and he is 840 lbs. He was 901 lbs. He is such a sweet, kind, wonderful man with great spirits He is Hopefully going to have Gastric Bypass Surgery very soon. Makes my Journey seem like cake compared to his. no pun intended. .......I also wanted to clarify something about the Herbal Life issue. I took no offense to anyones opinions or comments. You are all great. I will say I have personally witnessed their program working for many people. It just isn't for me. People have been able to come off insulin shots. Blood pressure medications and so on. So I am not knocking it at all. As a matter of fact they do have an awesome peach-mango Protein Drink w/ 15 g protein per serving (mixed w/6-8 ozs of water) It tastes awesome. That said I'm closing this post because I don't want to be known as the gal who posts novels on the Message Board Thanks again ~Julie~

Wow, I guess my first response didn't go thru. Let me try again or else this will be a repeat!! Never never, worry about posting your feelings here. That is what we are all about!! You may think you are a lone, but there is always some one that can relate to what you say. While I am my angel Kim were waiting for our approval, I told her my fear about not staying the same person. What if I became a ***** since I was convinced I was only nice because I was so fat and making up for something I was lacking. I had been discriminated against for my weight so it would only stand to reason I wouldn't need to "try" so hard anymore right? Well, I have "gained" confidence, but I think I am the same old Cheryl. I still have a hard time with compliments, but the more they come my way the easier it gets. So post away sweetie! We are here for you! love Cheryl