Almost 2 weeks post op and wondering if what I'm feeling is normal
Maryann C.
on 11/25/03 1:40 am
on 11/25/03 1:40 am
Hi everyone:
I will be 2 weeks post op tomorrow and I had a rough time the first two days home b/c I was dehydrating. I worked hard to get in the water and did well for the next three days b/c I got all of my fluids in. I felt better mentally and physically. However, this weekend I began to feel week again and didnt make the 48 oz per day that I was supposed to. The protein shakes are making me sick and then I dont want anything for a long time and before you know it I am behind in the fluids. I'm trying to concentrate more on fluids and getting protein from other places but 60 g is really hard when you are eating nothing. I go tomorrow for my 2 week checkup and am hoping to move to a stage 3 diet which is pureed proteins. It is really hard not having food at this point. I never hear that in my support group so I am wondering if I am the only one. It sounds pathetic but I actually burst into tears that I would miss Thanksgiving dinner this year and I didnt think it would bother me. Also I cried about 10 times yesterday and twice today already. I feel like I am having major mood swings. I cried the first two days home but then it got better for a few days. I chalked it up to drugs and anesthesia but now I'm crying again. I have lost 20lbs so far and I'm grateful but not excited. If I had gone to weigh****chers and had lost 20lbs I would feel prettier, more confident and excited. I dont know why but I just dont feel that way yet. I feel down in the dumps and when I read other peoples stories I dont hear a lot of that. I feel like I am a weirdo and an emotional mess. I also am having a hard time facing that I will not be sipping on my beloved egg nog and some of the other goodies that have become an intregal part of my holiday experience. Did anyone ever feel this way?
Thanks and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!
Hi Maryann,
Oh honey, by no means are you alone. I'm 7 weeks out, on maintenance, and the hardest thing I ever had to do was the liquid stage of this journey. Reading your post was like reading something could have written!! I promise you, it does get better once you can move to pureed foods. Promise!! I was so bad I would watch tv and I remember seeing the Burger King commercial for the chicken baguette and it wasn't the actress on TV, it was ME eating the sandwich!! But now I eat, and I don't necessarily enjoy food like I used to, and I eat to survive, not for enjoyment. Regardless, I would not want to go back in time and drink 3 weeks away, no way!
So hang in there. The tears and frustration are all normal. Feel free to email me if you would like - [email protected]
What you are feeling and experiencing are perfectly normal!! Doesit help to hear that? I hope it does a little. You have the effects of anestesio, pain meds and hormones from weight loss all acting on you at the same time. Don't worry too much- it will pass. Speak to Dr A about it when you see him next. He'd want to know.
Regarding the 60 grams of protein, you shouldn't be making yourself sick with protein shakes to get it in. Just do the best you can to get the protein in and drink your water. If the shake is making you sick- DONT drink it! Switch to something else - like NSA CIB with added powdered milk and mix with skim milk. (of course- you have to be OK with Milk.) Water is SO important to how you feel, you've got to get that in!
BTW- I was newly post op at Thanksgiving last year, and it was hard. I know how you feel totally. Don't worry- next year will be better- I can testify to that!
Good luck to you- I hope you're feeling better soon.