Taking the power out of the burrito

So, it's almost one o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep, so I decided to share some of my thoughts with you guys. Not eating is the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. Quitting smoking was a piece of cake compared to this. I know that I couldn't do this without surgery - hell, I can barely do it now and I've HAD the surgery! The one thing that has kept me from not binging is knowing that I've got a tiny little pouch that I could hurt pretty badly if I ate all that I've wanted to eat. I desperately want a burrito from Taco Bell. I haven't eaten Taco Bell since before the e-coli problem a few months back. But, for whatever reason, I really want a burrito. As I was thinking about how great it would be to eat like 3 of them and how great they would taste and how they'd fill me up, I stopped and thought...take the power out of it! It's a BURRITO, for heaven's sake, not a stack of $100s! So, I'm trying to take the power out of the burrito. It's hard and I haven't quite given up on the burrito, but I know that one day I will have power over the burrito!! I don't have buyer's remorse. I am thankful for what the surgery has done for me so far - it has made me miserable! No, I'm kidding...it hasn't. Not being able to eat has made me miserable, but I, thankfully, can see that this is a good thing. I am healing...detoxing if you will. I have faith that soon I won't be plagued by dreams of stuffing my face with gooey, cheesy burritos and will instead continue to dream of a healthier ME!

LMAO @ detoxing. Yeah, I have no advice for you. Just you can do it.

Good going Girl! You will find yourself having a lot of those little conversations. As the pounds fall off you will forget about the food and focus on just how well your "Journey" is progressing! Remember to tape up a before picture in the corner of your mirror so your reminded every day of where you started from and how far you are progressing! Take Care,

Hi Michelle, Don't fret over dreaming about food. The first few weeks after surgery I was addicted to watching the Food Network, just to keep my "closeness" to food. You are in the infancy of this and will find out once you start putting solids in that tummy, a half a burrito would make you sick. Good for you for changing your thought process. In the long run if you can change your mindset and stick with it, you will not gain back weight. I wish you the best. Tee

Michelle, I am so impressed with how you talked yourself off that ledge! Please don't indulge in these cravings if for any reason that you will do serious damage to your pouch. You are way too early in this to taste-test; I so understand what you're going through and I promise, this will pass! Try to occupy your mind with doing things that you enjoy. Make sure you are getting in all your fluids and don't hesitate to indulge in those sugar-free popsicles, they are so refreshing and pack a powerful taste punch. You'll be fine, you'll get through this - and in another month, your going to be posting a boasting of how GREAT you're feeling! Take care - M.