BIG FAILURE!!!!!!!!

25 yr diabetic here take it from me any fluctuation in the blood sugar causes major hunger... I am 1 week post op ... I feel hungry all the time from my blood sugars even when my sugar is 300 I am more hungry than when I am 80 if you can get that stable it might help ... hope all goes well

Lisa - Stop the negative self talk it does not do you any good and never will. You are not a failure - you are human. Take a deep breath, slow down - you can get to where you want to be, it is not a race. Sometimes telling ourselves that we can't have something makes the little rebel in us scream out - sometimes we have to squash that little rebel and not feed it at all - like with smoking - it is all up to you and how you deal with your addictions.......the cool thing is you always try, you never give up -your journey is like mine in many ways - it's not a straight line to the destination - so what? Some people are straight line there and I admire them completely - then there is the rest of us who take curvy roads to get there - right now you took a wrong turn at cornbread alley - so just turn around, it's okay - really! The term big failure would not have your picture next to it in the dictionary - trust me. Don't look back - look forward - make small, and I mean small little tiny goals for yourself. I have 3 goals hanging on my refrigerator right now that I am trying to integrate into my life - I have more then 3 things that I need to change - but I need to take small steps. Right now 1. I'm trying to focus on just moving - getting some type of exercise. 2. Eating a small handful of nuts every day (this should be easy huh?). 3. Drinking enough water - That's it - 3 goals - once I've managed to make them all habits, I'll find another 2 or 3 - you see we are like houses, there is always SOMETHING to work on - trust me - no one is perfect, everyone needs improvements in something - it's all part of the human experience! Take a deep breath - figure out the first step and don't worry about anything else - no pressure and please stop the negative self talk - you are a beautiful vibrant woman - you don't deserve it. Warmest Regards, Tammy

Boy am I glad I finally decided to get to this board and see what people are saying. Lisa, I am in the same boat as you right now. Mine is for different reasons though. My husband has been out of work since January 24th due to a work related injury. We are waiting to meet with a neurosurgeon to see if surgery is an answer. I am bitter towards overweight people right now and know that I shouldn't be. I used to be one myself. He herniated 2 discs in his back and tore another one and has nerve damage in his right leg because he had to go on an ambulance call and lift a stretcher with a 338lb. patient. I know this is his job, this is what he gets paid to do, but still. I know, I know, just because I took action to lose the weight doesn't mean that all people are strong enough to do it, or want to do it. Now that my ranting is over... I have been turning to grazing to try to help myself. It is amazing the things you resort to when you are trying to comfort yourself. Food seems to always be the culprit for me. I have turned in my debit card, I can no longer shop, this was helping me stay away from food, I have been sooooo busy at work lately, just more drama in my life, the kids are driving me crazy, if I have to see my DH in his stupid pajama pants sitting in the recliner one more day I am going to take up drinking instead of eating, I have turned in my CVS card - this should help me not go and get the big bag of SmartFood anymore. Lisa, I think that a Lean Cuisine is ok for lunch, it beats Burger King, McDonald's, Pizza Hut, Taco Bell, and what ever else we used to enjoy for fast food. I give you credit for eating those instead of the other crap you could be eating. Life is difficult, but you and I and everyone else need to realize that our habits and lifestyles have changed. We beat ourselves up enough, do we really need to punish ourselves because we are having Lean Cuisines or 5 sticks of String Cheese???? Hang in there, I keep telling myself that. Maybe you and I should go and get some Isopure mix it with some Crystal Lite and put it in a brown paper bag and pretend it is a big ole bottle of alchol and remember the good old days and what we have sacrificed to get as far as we have!!! Thank you so much for your post, I knew I could find some answers here!!! Jen