I have a touch of the crazies.

Ever since I have started the process to have WLS I have been eating like a pig. I have gained 25 pounds in 3 months. Is this normal to have something like this happen? With the increased weight has come increased lazyness. I don't want to do anything. My housework has backed up to the point where I am considering just blowing up the house and starting over. Same thing with work. No motivation or focus. I have been OBSESSED with this surgery. It's all I can think about day and night. What will I look like thin again? Will I really be able to buy the clothes in a regular size person's store? How will I handle food post op? Will I die? I am noticing a bit of strife lately from a few choice people in my life. I have a person in my life that is not "for" me getting WLS. She thinks I should do it on my own. If I could have done this on my own I would not be considering WLS. I think her biggest fear is that she will have to go back into my shadow. Me getting fat was the best thing that ever happened to her!!! (I do not have an overinflated ego or a god complex, she just is the competitive type). I was quite the looker as a thin person,,,the fat has made me look bloated and distended. It took me getting fat to gain a personality. How will I deal with any attention I might receive? (I don't mean just men, but anyone who notices a huge weight loss). I am so used to not being noticed anymore that I actually don't like it when people do notice me. Sorry for the rambling. I am nervous about such a life changing event and eagerly awaiting it. Thanks for letting me vent a little.

hi sue, sounds like the i may never eat this again syndrome.i had the same problem so it took me a year to get surgery.the sooner you lose some weight the sooner you get the surgery.i'm 6 months out and i can just eat about anything with no problem.there were also people in my life that were afraid of the wls but stand strong this is all about you.by the way i'm still uncomfortable about weight loss comments but you'll get use to it.it's better than the negative ones we recieve when we're large.and by the way you will be shopping off the rack before you know it.shopping becomes fun again when you get a choice. good luck,joni

Hey Joni!! Thanks for replying. Yeah, I think I have a bit of the "last supper" syndrome. It's good to know I am not the only one. I am very happy for you that you are now 6 months out and having fun shopping!! That sounds great!! You give me hope.

Dear Sue, STOP THE EATING...RIGHT NOW! Get the food out of your house. Go on phase one of South Beach and get the carbs and sugar out of your system and you'll lose the taste and cravings for them. It's a bit of the "Last Supper" syndrome, but there comes a time where you've GOT to take that 25 lbs off and then the weight that your surgeon wants you to lose so that your liver isn't so fatty that he can't do the surgery. The reason they have you lose weight is to reduce all the fat that's built up on and around your liver...when they operate, a liver that's fatty flops out like a dorsal fin and the surgeon can't work around it. If you're taking this surgery seriously and are as obsessed with it as you claim, you should be adhearing to the rules and take charge of things so that you are totally prepared for the day of surgery. Please take care of yourself and don't feel like it's a "free for all" just because you're getting the surgery. Remember, it's just a tool, not a magic wand and the weight won't magically disappear if you don't adhere to the "rules of the pouch" and exercise... Also, start exercising now, get your body ready for surgery so that you can heal well. Eat lots of protein...Seriously, get down to basics and prepare. You won't have regret it and will do so much better. Sorry if I come on so strong, but I'm obsessed with this and am one *****ally plays by the rules...I hope that others do the same...(by the way...I'm FAR from perfect!) Paula

Hello Paula. Thanks for reminding me what's important. Quite honestly I have not seen Dr. Barba yet. I am going for my last nutritional consult and then I can meet with him. Part of me is afraid that if I loose any weight I won't get approved for the surgery (stupid, I know, but I am scared nonetheless). As of yet I have not been told to loose any weight (not an excuse, just letting you know, but I really do know better). You are so totally right. I should be taking this time to start making the changes in my life that I will need to do after the surgery. In my mind's eye I just keep seeing the "outcome" (me being thin again) and not thinking too much about HOW I am going to get there. I need to dig out my South Beach Diet book again. I also need to get over myself and go to the gym that I pay $30.00 a month to. Thank you, Paula, for coming on strong. I needed to hear it. Sue

Paula is right - get with the program now...the more you show yourself and your doc that you can stick with something, the more confidant you will be about your ablility to do the same after surgery. I definately had that last supper thing too but I didnt do it till I was scheduled for surgery and managed to control myself enough not to gain any weight. Dont worry about losing and not being approved for surgery either - I was never documented at a weight that put me in that 40+ BMI (I was just shy) but because of my diet history and other medical issues I had no problem getting approved- even though I lost another 10 before surgery. Hang in there. You can do it and you will feel much better about going under the knife if you have truly started the process and quit making excuses. About the gym - I used to jokingly refer to that monthy fee as my fat tax cause I didnt go. Even once a week will make you feel good.