I'm doubting surgery...

I sent you a couple of messages at OH.

Thanks so much Marc! I'll be responding to you over the weekend! Michelle

Michelle. Think about how you are now....how young you are....and how you will probably be when you're 40 without surgery...If you're even alive then with all the co-morbidities you have already. Look at it from the other side. You have Dr Aranow for life. If something drastic comes up, he will be there to figure it out for you! Leave the medicine to the medical professionals! You get yourself prepared for surgery like you've been doing. The additional weight loss is wonderful, but, look what happened since you opted out of the surgery a year ago...you got diabetes...you thought then that you could do it on your own and you added a co-morbidity to the list. The dissection is indeed, a dissection, but it's not that bad. We still absorb our medicines. If anything, we need less of them cause they absorb quickly. Why haven't you mailed me with these thoughts? Some angel I am! You should be bringing all of this to me, I'm MAD! Call me if you need to, email me...I'm here for you, girlfriend. In a year from now, you'll look back at these thoughts and will laugh. Cause, you'll be 100+lbs thinner and feeling great and looking great and wondering what took you so damm long to do it! You're young..when I was your age, every little ache and pain and illness I heard of I translated to maybe happening to me. A doctor told me that almost every woman in her mid to late 20's goes through this. We worry too much instead of living our lives and enjoying them! I want to get to the mall with you and go shopping for new clothes...and, if we get to move back to CT this year, I'll be even closer to do that with you! Write me...dammit Paula

Paula, my angel!!! I know, I know...you can yell at me, I don't mind! I want to be healthy and I don't want to be diabetic and have sleep apnea. I don't want the aches & pains that come with the extra weight I'm carrying around. I want to be healthy, I REALLY DO! But, I look at some people who were 300/400+ pounds and able to lose some or all of their excess weight and I think, well, maybe... A member of my family has cancer...that's what's got me thinking about the absorbtion of meds. Surgery is scary. I'm scared!! I'll be e-mailing or calling you over the weekend, so look/listen out for it! Talk to you soon and thanks so much for your support and your honesty! Michelle

Michelle you are in my prayers. Just know all the feelings that you feel are normal. Joann

I certainly could be wrong, but wouldn't the most likely course of treatment for malabsorbtion be to increase whatever it is your'e having difficulty with, including many medications? Hmmmmm....... Thought on this?

Sounds pretty logical to me. IV meds also. Maybe that's just an excuse for me to chicken out. I'm good at that. I still need to think about the surgery because I'm still scared. I don't know what I'm scared of at this point, but I know that I am. Thanks for keeping me on my toes and making me think! Michelle

Michelle, I ENVY your position. Only a COMPLETE IDIOT could contemplate a life-changing surgical proceedure without having ANY fears. Fear is healthy, so long as it isn't a fear of success. Take care and know many are routing for you!:thumbsup: Deb